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![]() There's a lot of roadwork going on around here, both on my street and the next. I don't know where all those cars go, as people can't park weekdays 9am - 4pm. The noise is unbearable and I can't open my windows while it's going on. I feel the city is in the toilet and they will bury me in this crap apartment. I mean where can I go? ![]() __________________ ![]() ![]() Hmmm....looks like some good tips in here. "Okay, enough photos. I'm a very BUSY Business Kitty, so make an appointment next time." Last edited by nonightowl; May 10, 2024 at 12:16 PM.. |
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#982
I'm depressed and on edged lately. I just found out a couple of days ago that a small apartment place across the street will be torn down and being replaced with a larger one. But this morning I found out that, down the street from me, they will be tearing down a couple of businesses and will put up a 20-story high rise apartments. I recently signed a lease for a whole year, not knowing that these things would happen, and now I'm going to be stuck with madness for a whole year.
Lately I haven't been sleeping well at night and, for the last three days, it's been noisy at my place with tree trimming and mulching at where they will build that high rise. I thought that the high rise was not going to happen since it was proposed about two years ago and the neighbors protested. We lost! I called my sister today for comfort from her. It didn't go well. We were both thinking of places where I could move to, since I feel like the area where I am is going downhill. All we did was just name places but no solutions or good ideas. What really frustrated with me the most was that she kept on repeating the same places over and over again. I think she is coming down with Alzheimer's. She sounded like she had brain fog. |
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#983
![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() __________________ Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
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#984
This day is only halfway over as of now. I've been feeling like a real Gloomy Gus since I've be up. It's been a gloomy day outside and cool.
I expected that this morning was going to be racket-mania around where I live. There's been some tree trimming down the street from me but it seems like they are finishing up. So not much noise from them. There's supposed to be trees being chopped down and mulching directly across the street from me but it hasn't happened. It's weird that it's so quiet when I thought there'd be a lot of noise. But I'll take it! Nothing much else to report about, but the day isn't over yet, so we'll see. Last edited by will19; May 13, 2024 at 04:31 PM.. |
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#985
Been in a funk for like a week now. Depressed jobless, you name it. Want to cry. Trying to keep it together for my son.
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#987
I'm battling suicidal thoughts, and every day that I spent on these endless waitlists for care is a day the thoughts get stronger.
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#988
My thoughts have advanced from mere contemplation to considering methods. I don't know who to turn to about this. I told the staff at the emergency room I want to die but when they asked if I have a plan and I answered honestly no, they didn't take me seriously. So I have no one to talk to about this.
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#989
Whoever coined the phrase "life isn't fair" didn't know the half of it.
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#990
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![]() ![]() ![]() They are still doing roadwork on my block and the next, with the no parking signs still up, 9-4 weekdays. Some people are parking there anyway and getting ticketed. If I had to park on the street I'd be BLOCKS away. I never did get emotional comfort from my "family" and got scorned for having emotions at all. I only just found out after decades, that they didn't have the ability to manage or feel emotions, even their own. Here I'm still "waiting" for the development to happen a couple of blocks from me, after 4 years of that property sitting vacant. The longer it just sits, the more graffiti, vandalism and tents appear. I won't even walk on that side of the street now, going out of my way because it's too scary to get that close. I get a "lovely view" of it from my gym on the third floor. Another disruption is my upstairs neighbor getting up early the last few days (he usually doesn't) and he has a guest also. So I'm getting noise during the few times I have quiet. And it will last an unknown number of days. Uncertainty, change, and disruption: My "favorite" things. ![]() __________________ ![]() ![]() Hmmm....looks like some good tips in here. "Okay, enough photos. I'm a very BUSY Business Kitty, so make an appointment next time." Last edited by nonightowl; May 15, 2024 at 11:46 AM.. |
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#991
I'm currently incarcerated at the local hospital after confessing suicidal plans at the ER. I wish I had not done so because I'd rather be home than stuck in an uncomfortable hospital bed for days on end.
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![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() __________________ Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
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#994
I hate this place. It's so loud and busy that I've been awake for nearly three days now. I dont expect how they think my mental state can improve under such sleep deprivation. I never should've come here.
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#995
Im sorry rock. Yeah even food doesnt make up for that.
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#996
Shockingly, they are letting me keep my cell phone on the psych ward. And there's free wifi! This will make the next several days a little easier.
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#997
I was feeling OK this morning as I was busy with things. But later on in the early afternoon, I found out that the project for the new apartments across the street from me will happen. Last Monday they were going to cut down trees but nothing happened and the no parking signs were taken away. But now the no parking signs are back up and it will be for next Monday and Tuesday.
Also I feeling depressed because nobody's been either calling or messaging me for quite a while. |
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Lately the loneliness has been exacerbated by my upstairs neighbor and all his visitors. All week he's been getting up early (unusual) so I haven't been getting my nice quiet mornings. And he's having company. I can tell when someone else is up there due to the different gait. So much heavy walking, showers running a lot, sliding doors slamming. Effing night people too, coming home late and waking me up with their heavy steps and door slamming then the shower. I don't hear the laughing and talking though sometimes I DO hear either them or maybe a TV. Still, I'm aware of his visitors. ![]() I have to work up the courage to ask yet another neighbor I'm acquainted with if she'd check on me. I asked one last year, last July and she never called me. That's almost a YEAR ago. Billions of people on this planet and over 50 people in this building alone yet I can't find one effing person to care about me. ![]() __________________ ![]() ![]() Hmmm....looks like some good tips in here. "Okay, enough photos. I'm a very BUSY Business Kitty, so make an appointment next time." |
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#999
I will say this, though: my room on the psych ward is way nicer and cleaner than my apartment.
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The new thread is here: Daily check in thread: Ups & Downs #33
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