[nonightowl]

Originally Posted by will19

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I always want to get going on the cleaning by 9.

I don't like having my routine disrupted either. It's the only thing that keeps me grounded or that I have any control over. An acquaintance who has a routine of calling me weekly had to change the time for that day. We agreed on 2pm or so I thought. She called me at 3 which is late for me; I'm not an afternoon person.

She said sorry and she thought it was 3. I went ahead and talked because if it wasn't for her, nobody would be calling me or talking to me at all. She was originally calling me as a volunteer during Covid lockdowns. And she wanted to continue to call, but I just get a half hour of her time one day a week.

It's kind of like wanting the whole slice of bread but I'm only going to get one bite. Drastic analogy but that's how it feels. I'm ambivalent about the calls, since it's been almost 4 years of talking yet I don't know her. It's so one sided but is it better than nothing? Sometimes I don't know.

[will19]

Quote from Nonightowl ---> "It's so one sided but is it better than nothing? Sometimes I don't know".

It's a good point because I feel that way a lot about my friend. I think it's better than nothing, because having no one is really bad especially when things go wrong. But there are a lot of times when I feel frustrated that it's so one-sided. We disagree on issues a lot - personal and current events. It feels OK for me to just have a "cool down time". I wish it wouldn't come down to that, but after a while I miss having the contact.

If someone could just come along and wave a magic wand at me to create a great friend, that would be wonderful, even if we disagree at times. I used to have some great friends like that but they are long gone. Also there have been possibilities of making a new friend and then it didn't turn out well.

Best to you.

[Buffy01]

I’ve been feeling really horrible

[Cocosurviving]

My day was kick-*** awesome. I attended a community day and healthy kids day with my grandson. My son attended a birthday party.

Afterward we attended a local Earth Day celebration. We enjoyed live bands, and vendors. It wasn’t too crowded at the time we went. Kids were playing with hula hoops , coloring with chalk and playing with bubbles. I also ran into a fellow comrade.

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[will19]

A gloomy day today. Felt depressed but I don't really know why.

Just last week, there was a little lot for parking in the back at where I live that finally opened after six and a half months. But now they've closed it again and I don't know why. And then they put in a port-a-potty in the lot just now. The last time that happened, some homeless people camped out and broke in to this place. I hope it doesn't happen again. The street parking was a problem while that little lot was closed, but it eased when it opened. Now we're right back into that crap again.

[Rose76]

I'm having a good day and feel in a chippery mood. Did a bit of yard work. That helps my mood a lot.

[nonightowl]

Originally Posted by will19

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I used to have some great friends like that but they are long gone. Also there have been possibilities of making a new friend and then it didn't turn out well.

Same here. I still have just one real life quality friend, and if I had just ONE more it would make a big difference!

Originally Posted by will19

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But now they've closed it again and I don't know why. And then they put in a port-a-potty in the lot just now. The last time that happened, some homeless people camped out and broke in to this place. I hope it doesn't happen again. The street parking was a problem while that little lot was closed, but it eased when it opened. Now we're right back into that crap again.

They are doing roadwork around here, and there's temporary no parking signs 9-4 weekdays. And parking is ATROCIOUS here, so I'm glad I don't have to park on the street.

And a gas station near me closed in January, as they are going to develop the very busy corner at a major intersection, and yet build another high-rise luxury apartment building. There's just the cashier's booth left, all of the pumps are long gone. But now it's covered with graffiti again (it was cleaned off once already) and there's a couple of tents there now. The buildings next to it were torn down years ago, back in 2019 or 2020, and they haven't even started doing anything. It's a real eye sore.

When they finally start, that intersection will be unbearable. I'll have to avoid it, whether on foot or driving, even if I have to go out of my way.

Ironic people are camping out on a site proposed for more (expensive) "housing".

[Rose76]

Yesterday and today I felt lousy. Just apathetic. Not even dressed. I'm not doing myself any good.

[3rd rock]

I just learned it's going to be like five more weeks before I can get into detox. When I first got in contact with detox and got on their list, nobody told me I had to be approved to enter a treatment program before I could enter detox. And now I just wonder why. I had thought I was no more than a week away. I feel so hopeless. I am in such a dark place. I need help and it's just taking so long to get it. What's even the point if I'm just going to be on an endless wait list??

[will19]

Quite a day for me. I got up early to do the laundry. That went alright. After that I went shopping and then on the way home my car was acting funny. So I had it repaired and it was pretty expensive. I didn't expect something to go wrong with my car since there was no warning. And then I got notice that my rent will increase monthly in June. So this afternoon I feel like I'm being smoked financially. My income isn't increasing, that's for sure!

[nonightowl]

Originally Posted by will19

snip: I didn't expect something to go wrong with my car since there was no warning. And then I got notice that my rent will increase monthly in June. So this afternoon I feel like I'm being smoked financially. My income isn't increasing, that's for sure!

Me too. And I've also had unexpected car problems, like when I needed new tires. I hardly drive but they get "dry rot" from age (over 10 years old). They are so expensive.

I also got a recent rent increase, while losing the ACP discount this month as Congress isn't funding it again. I'm feeling like I'm living in the kind of dystopia I've read in science fiction books or seen in movies.

[Rose76]

Yesterday was a good day. I worked outside on rose bushes. It made my back sore, pulling weeds. I slept too late this morning. I have to start setting an alarm.

[nonightowl]

Originally Posted by Rose76

snip: I worked outside on rose bushes.

Your member name always brings roses to mind, my favorite flower. I'd grow them but they need full sun all day, which I don't have.