[Deilla]

I'm very depressed today. I'm having a hard time showering. It's been a week. It's time. I wash up in between. But I need the full job of a shower. I'm crying cause I can't do it. I just don't have the energy. It's so bad that I'm having really negative thoughts about my life.

I don't have anything to motivate me. I don't know what I will do.

[emily1890]

did you manage to take a shower?

how was last night for you. what did you do in the end?

[Deilla]

Hi! No, I wasn't able to shower. I slept late this morning and had to start work right away. I work from home. I felt better last night cause I restarted my accountability thread. I put shower down there. Today, I said I would do it tomorrow. I have a reward picked out for myself. So I feel more positive. Thanks for checking.

[Deilla]

I forced myself to take a shower by coloring my hair. I wasn't sure if I should color it. But I opened the box and put the gloves on. I just did it step by step. I felt so much better after showering. I have a wellness exam tomorrow. So I will shower again tonight.