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A hospital called me, saying my brother was there in ICU on a ventilator with pneumonia. I hadn't heard from him in years. I went to visit him yesterday. He was off the vent and improving. He was too sedated to interact with me. I went again earlier this evening. He was alert and told me to, "Go away." So I left. I won't go back. Now I'm so fatigued and sleepy. I'm depressed, but I keep trying to believe that this feeling won't last.
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__________________ https://imaginativefusion.wixsite.com/mysite/blog Winners are losers who got up and gave it one more try. - Dennis DeYoung "It is possible to turn poison into medicine." ~ Tina Turner Remember we're all in this alone. ~ Lily Tomlin |
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@speckofdust - I read the article. Good things to keep in mind.
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Today I got from the bed to the couch. That was my sole accomolishment today.
I feel crummy. My recent bloodwork was great, so the anemia hasn't come back. Physically, I should feel fine. But I don't. I'm afraid this downturn is not going to end. It's really up to me to end it, by getting up and tidying up. I feel too weak. It's all coming from depression. I need some help. There isn't any. Been there and done that years ago. Meds didn't help. Counseling didn't help. I've been told there was really nothing wrong with me. In a way, I guess there isn't really. It's the way I've been living - too reclusive, cut off from the world around me. If I could just clean up my place, I would feel better. |
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Or put some funny Christmas shows on tv. I have covid. Third time. Timing for it is depressing. Last night I watched Man who came for dinner. I don’t know why I haven’t seen it before. I laughed aloud. It’s absolutely the funniest. I forgot I was sick. Have you seen it? |
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I know exactly what you mean about cleaning. It actually feels good, once I get some momentum going. The starting, however, is extremely hard, when I'm in a depressed episode. I finally got started today at 2 p.m. I decorated my Christmas tree. Doing that went much faster than I expected. It does look nice. I'm pleased that I got that done. Last nite I considered sticking the tree back in its storage bag and into my outside storage closet. I was that bummed out. I felt zero interest in decorating. Once I started, I did get into it. Now I must keep going. When my home environment is orderly and things look attractive, I get into a much better state of mind. I better get back to work. Stuff is strewn all over the living room. At least now, my hope is back. Thanks for the encouragement. I'm easily influenced that way. I pick up a positive vibe when I read an encouraging post. It's like getting a jump for my psychic battery. Time to hear some Christmas songs. I hope all posters are having a good week. |
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Just in case this is helpful to someone, for some humor (and this isn't for everyone), I enjoy Serial Mom, Little Shop of Horrors, and anything with Ellen DeGeneres (except "Mr. Wrong" - although funny at times, it's mostly not that good - Joan Cusack is the one redeeming part. Time you can never get back, and you can't unsee it).
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I'm not doing well. I feel tired. I didn't even send any Christmas cards. I feel bad about that.
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This is the worse Christmas Eve I've ever had. I'm trying to tell myself that I just have to get through this Christmas and, then, take steps to build a better life for myself. That should be possible, but I don't quite believe it is. I need someone to convince me that I can improve. I need a transfusion of hope.
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Kimmy: "Shows what you know. Sorry, giving up isn't my jam. My jams are grape, Jock, and Space." Titus: "Hashtag respectmyjourney." ~ Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt Take it from someone who truly understands what you are saying and feeling. My T just literally talked me off the ledge a couple of nights ago. Life turns on a dime. It CAN get better! Give tomorrow a chance. And the day after tomorrow... I had two wonderful surprises today, and I wouldn't have been able to experience them if I'd made a different choice the other night. Keep going. __________________ https://imaginativefusion.wixsite.com/mysite/blog Winners are losers who got up and gave it one more try. - Dennis DeYoung "It is possible to turn poison into medicine." ~ Tina Turner Remember we're all in this alone. ~ Lily Tomlin |
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You CAN and will, if you choose to. One specific thing that helps me a lot is positive suggestion statements. These are not "affirmations," per se - but I suppose a similar concept. A few of mine, that were written in concert with a trained pro - "You are worthy." "You have value." "You engage in activities that are joyful and creative." Knowing what I know now, I am able to craft my own statements now. I write them out once a day, listen to a recorded version of them a few times a week, and think of them sometimes throughout the course of the day. It helps to train your brain to get on a more positive track. Focusing on gratitude and helping others are also helpful. Best!
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