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Default Feb 18, 2024 at 06:43 PM
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Literally canít be honest with friends because when I am itís ďgo to the nearest hospital and call me when you get there ď which happened today but then I just slept at some dudes house and now Iím in a car thinking about ending my life but like this is baseline so no need to worry right?

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Default Feb 18, 2024 at 07:07 PM
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@MuddyBoots I am sorry you are feeling so low that you are considering ending your life. To me that would be a great loss so I hope you seek help and get yourself feeling stable again.

You have friends that are trying to help you. They must care about you but when one is considering hastening the end of life, that is something that needs professional help.

If you need or want to contact an online support, there are suicide prevention links here at the end of this link by DocJohn Our Suicidal Posting Policy & Suicide Resources

Remember what DocJohn says "Don't throw away your shot."

Another thing I heard "Do not make a persmanent decision for a temporary situation."

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Default Feb 19, 2024 at 01:13 PM
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I didnít throw away my fking shot. In this stupid pos game Iíve tried making a basket 100 times, but I guess I just suck. People want to keep me in the game because itís like a ****** league game and they want to be inclusive, but if I werenít surrounded by coaches trying and failing to make me feel better about myself and teammates who are constantly throwing the ball in my face and then getting pissed when I canít do anything with it, I wouldnt and shouldnít even be in this stupid miserable fked up pointless joyless game.

ďDo not make a permanent decision for a temporary situation.Ē Okay, next time I am hungry and want a slice of toast with peanut butter on it, Iíll starve because the craving is only temporary and eventually I wonít even feel the hunger. Next time my cat gets severely terminally Iíll and suffering I wonít put her down because the situation of her living is only temporary. Iíll never stay sober because my desire to be clean and sober is merely fleeting. I wonít piss in the woods on a four day backpacking trip because the puss will stay there but Iíll get out of the woods eventually. I wonít end my life because one day I will die and my brain will stop making me want to die.

Perfect fking logic. Grade A. Chronic suicidality solved, gonna go give a TED talk on how a couple trite sayings saved my life.

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A couple of people elsewhere have been violating me repeatedly with trite patronising sayings. I understand what you mean

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I didnít throw away my fking shot. In this stupid pos game Iíve tried making a basket 100 times, but I guess I just suck. People want to keep me in the game because itís like a ****** league game and they want to be inclusive, but if I werenít surrounded by coaches trying and failing to make me feel better about myself and teammates who are constantly throwing the ball in my face and then getting pissed when I canít do anything with it, I wouldnt and shouldnít even be in this stupid miserable fked up pointless joyless game.

ďDo not make a permanent decision for a temporary situation.Ē Okay, next time I am hungry and want a slice of toast with peanut butter on it, Iíll starve because the craving is only temporary and eventually I wonít even feel the hunger. Next time my cat gets severely terminally Iíll and suffering I wonít put her down because the situation of her living is only temporary. Iíll never stay sober because my desire to be clean and sober is merely fleeting. I wonít piss in the woods on a four day backpacking trip because the puss will stay there but Iíll get out of the woods eventually. I wonít end my life because one day I will die and my brain will stop making me want to die.

Perfect fking logic. Grade A. Chronic suicidality solved, gonna go give a TED talk on how a couple trite sayings saved my life.

Hi friend, you are not alone , I think even in this virtual space the words people have given me good or bad help. My case is different and may be religious but I flog my self with a belt o my back to try to feel alive and not so dead inside its twisted and still live with someone who abuses me verbally and makes me feel small, yet I am terrified of she leaves. Not trying to make this my post and sorry if it sounds like that just trying to share you are not suffering alone I wish you as many of my friends here continue to battle your own battles and get the strength to win them . Blessings and a big hug

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