thinking straight

how do you guys say such deep thoughtful things? My mind is so jumbled and wacky that i sound like a dork. I have read some amazing and interesting thoughts since I've been posting here. Don't misunderstand me, yall have made me think outside my little box of a brain and that is good. I just keep thinking man, why didn't I think of that or I would like to write meaningful poetry, even have a good conversation. When I'm w/family I'm not heard because, in my minds eye, I'm just not interesting. I'm so alone w/my thoughts and watch diff shows than they do. Plus, I don't work. I love to make greeting cards, since this is relaxing but I need a craft table and supplies. Money keeps me from this. See, my mind cannot stay on track. Tonight is especially confusing. My knees hurt and I go from laying on the couch to sitting in my rocker. My mind is going like a race car. Who can I call? What can I do? Where can I go? I don't drive after dark if possible because I do not have any sense of direction. This is true, I get lost in the mall. ha Anyway, sorry my post are so long, i'm confused and lonesome and I need someone to hug me and say i love you. I miss that the most...I guess that's it, the word "LOVE" Why does it elude me, where is it, please tell me.

We Love dorks! In fact, some of us are dorks. I used to not be able to have a conversation. I even studied some books on the art of conversation, but it didn't help. I think having therapy helped me learn to talk.

So tell us more about you? Your knees hurt? I get that sometimes. I don't know why. And you do greeting cards? That's so cool. Do you write stuff in them or just do the art?

hi puckyjan : )

when i read that you wanted to write meaningful poetry, followed by watching dif shows than the rest of the family, i could tell we had something in common...

it gets so lonely out there i know... it would be great if we could all walk around with a sign that said, hey, i need a hug right now, or, can i have a little care here?

guess we never do the obvious for some reason...

when you feel that way you feel like there's no one anywhere who can possibly understand... i know, cause i felt that way too long...

hope you can feel better knowing there are others who have felt that way and care...

hope you wont feel that way another minute...

(((((((((((((((((((puckyjan))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) I know how lonely and painful it can be sometimes. And how hard it can be to experss myself. Please know I am here and I care.

BB

((((puckyjan))))) hugs to you, I too know how lonely it is a lot of the time. I don't work either and I feel like others feel less of me because of it. Also, I don't get much money, which makes it hard. I have to watch closely what I spend. I have hardly no family close by and little friends. PC has been a life saver for me. I come here as often as I can. It helps me to know there are others that care. People are listening and will give such good words of encourgment here. Come here and talk. Things do get better at times and those are the times I cherish. Im here and I care too.

ginny