[will19]

From Nonightowl ---> "Do you workout in the morning or afternoon? Same time or around the same time"?

I workout at the same time. That's how I am, like clockwork, when I need to do something. For my band-resistance exercises I do it three days a week - Monday, Wednesday, and Friday at 11 AM. For my bike rides, I take a one hour ride every day from 4:30 to 5:30 PM: but I'll start the bike rides earlier pretty soon.

[nonightowl]

Yeah I’m a creature of habit too. I even use the machines in a certain order at the gym.

One of my next door neighbors runs his a/c almost 24 hours, 7 days a week in hot weather but sometimes even during mild days, like in the 70’s. I wonder what his electric bill is and how he can afford it. He must be well to do but if so why is he in this dump ha ha. I know nothing about him and I rarely see him.

I finally got another new next door neighbor and it’s just been about 11 days so too soon to tell much. A young woman with a medium sized dog and she seems nice. But I just asked her to turn her music down, politely of course. She seemed receptive so I hope so. I hate that I have to say anything at all and I didn’t do that at her age. Sigh. I think that I love dogs will keep things cordial and I got to pet him. I also met a guy there who introduced himself and offered his hand to shake. That’s neighborly. I thought he lived there too but he said they’re just dating. Well THAT brought back bittersweet memories for me.

And the guy above me is always having guests over and they spend the night a lot too. It’s like a bed and breakfast up there. All this makes things feel lonelier.

Speaking of doing things with one’s life earlier, did you ever go to your high school or college reunion? I never have because I have little to show since those days. I’d love to reminisce but I bet someone is going to talk about their life since and currently too. And I’d have nothing to talk about.

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[will19]

From Nonightowl ---> "Speaking of doing things with one’s life earlier, did you ever go to your high school or college reunion? I never have because I have little to show since those days. I’d love to reminisce but I bet someone is going to talk about their life since and currently too. And I’d have nothing to talk about."

I haven't been to any reunions. Next year will be the 50th year in my HS class. I am definitely not going. The HS years were not the best. I haven't been back to where I came from in 20 years.

[nonightowl]

I just got my new day planner for next year, which I do every September. I prefer paper and sticky notes, instead of my phone, for noting my tasks or chores. It’s more private of course even though most pages are blank. But it’s triggering for me since it makes me face yet another year has gone and nothing changes in my life. I hate things like that I do routinely such as dental appointments. I go next month and it’s been 6 months since my last visit.

And I drive past my old high school each time. And I feel 100 and that my life isn’t what I thought it would be.

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[will19]

I felt a little bit better today because the weather cooled down. And now it seems like fall. However, early this morning was ruined by a lot of noise from the construction site across the street.

[Buffy01]

I think the choices I made are the reason why I am feeling depressed

[Rose76]

I'm still doing pretty good. Since July 20, my depressed state of mind hasn't come back. That's a good run for me. Mood is okay, but functioning could be improved. It's still hard to get out of bed in the morning. My place sure looks cleaner and neater. I've been eating better.

[The Grey Wolf]

Not sure if anyone is allowed to check in or not. I'm doing terribly though I thought about texting the hotline but apparently they will call the police so that isn't going to happen. Not really sure if I can be helped anyway

[will19]

I did my cleaning this morning. I've been feeling better because it's cooler now.

This afternoon my mood sunk when I got into some contentions with a couple of people in my life. I felt like they were not nice to me and crossed my boundaries.

It's got me down and I worry that there's a lot wrong with me.