[Rose76]

Depressed.

[3rd rock]

Nothing works. Exercise doesn't work. Medications don't really do anything. Drugs and alcohol just make the problem work. Lately I've been thinking about my retirement and it just seems impossible to imagine that I'm going to live another thirty years.

Today was a nice day. I got up at 5:30 AM to do the laundry and it all went well. After doing the laundry I went to get a smog check on my car. That went well. I was the only one there - no waiting! I passed, so that was great. The man who did it was nice . Last Monday, as I had said on here at that time, I went to that smog check place and the computer wasn't working. I hated to have to go back but it went well, so I was pleased.

I did some light shopping afterwards and got some good deals. I felt like I got what I needed and saved quite a bit. That was needed!

In the afternoon my old friend from college called me. It went OK. He's a nice guy and a good friend; but it seems like he doesn't talk very well. Something seems off with him.

[Calla lily12]

Today is just a hold over from last night. I started feeling very tense and argumentative.
After a while I started feeling very sad but I couldn't cry. I felt self destructive. I still feel very tense and angry today. I really hate this.

[Calla lily12]

Now I feel invisible . Once again, I seem to be the Jack Kevorkian of threads. I give up.

[Rose76]

I managed to get dressed. That seemed like a big improvement. But now I want to go lie down. I keep wanting to sleep. I've been so depressed.

[3rd rock]

I bought the stuff to make some mushroom pork chops at Walmart today. Along with a few other grocery items, it cost me about $62. The extreme price of food and other basic necessities makes me upset, because I know if prices continue to climb then I might not be able to feed myself. It's very depressing to go to the grocery store and every time it now costs me $45-60 per bag of groceries. And I'm just a single, childless adult who knows how to live cheaply. I shudder to think about what it costs to feed a typical family in this day and age. And no one in our government seems to really care about it at all. They brag about bringing inflation down, but I need prices not to just increase at a slower rate, but to actually decrease. It's deeply depressing to know I can't save for the future when the now is just so expensive.

[nonightowl]

Originally Posted by will19

Today was a nice day. I got up at 5:30 AM to do the laundry and it all went well. After doing the laundry I went to get a smog check on my car. That went well. I was the only one there - no waiting! I passed, so that was great. The man who did it was nice . Last Monday, as I had said on here at that time, I went to that smog check place and the computer wasn't working. I hated to have to go back but it went well, so I was pleased.

I did some light shopping afterwards and got some good deals. I felt like I got what I needed and saved quite a bit. That was needed!

In the afternoon my old friend from college called me. It went OK. He's a nice guy and a good friend; but it seems like he doesn't talk very well. Something seems off with him.

Glad you had a good day at last, much deserved. Everyone here deserves it on that note:

I’m always afraid my car won’t pass the smog inspection.

I hope your friend gets better.

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[nonightowl]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

I bought the stuff to make some mushroom pork chops at Walmart today. Along with a few other grocery items, it cost me about $62. The extreme price of food and other basic necessities makes me upset, because I know if prices continue to climb then I might not be able to feed myself. It's very depressing to go to the grocery store and every time it now costs me $45-60 per bag of groceries. And I'm just a single, childless adult who knows how to live cheaply. I shudder to think about what it costs to feed a typical family in this day and age. And no one in our government seems to really care about it at all. They brag about bringing inflation down, but I need prices not to just increase at a slower rate, but to actually decrease. It's deeply depressing to know I can't save for the future when the now is just so expensive.

The government is out of touch and lives in a different universe!

I hate the word inflation and other fancy words to describe high prices! I see you’re in Canada and not the USA but I think it’s global, like the climate crisis.

The government also has inaccurate data on things like the number of unemployed or homeless. Since they just count claims, the unemployment rate is much higher because people don’t get counted when dropped from the system. This happens when they run out of benefits.

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Originally Posted by nonightowl

I hope your friend gets better.

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I don't think my friend will get better. He was much better in the past than he is now. He's not getting worse, but he's been the way he is now for a good long time unfortunately. Thank you for your concern for him. I feel concerned for him

[Buffy01]

I am still trying to figure out how to heal trauma in my family system

[Rose76]

This has been a painful day. I wish I was dead.

[3rd rock]

Originally Posted by Rose76

This has been a painful day. I wish I was dead.

I'm sorry you feel that way. I hope you'll get through the night. Just take it one day at a time.

I'm feeling very depressed and hurt now. I feel like I got snubbed and I don't understand it. Here's the story:

I didn't mention it on here but last Saturday, I felt like I was instrumental in saving someone's life. It was a neighbor. What happened was that she collapsed and it happened outside of my bedroom window. I was the only one responding to her and she was unresponsive to me because she had a seizure.

I called 911 and got other neighbors to help out because I didn't know how to handle it A couple of women helped her out and I felt like they did a great job. She was taken to the hospital.

Now she's fine as of today, but I only saw her in the distance. It appeared that she gave a couple of the women (who helped her out) a small gift box with a "thank you" card. I never got one. I feel really hurt by this. I feel like I don't deserve all of the credit, but at least a little something.

[Rose76]

Originally Posted by will19

I'm feeling very depressed and hurt now. I feel like I got snubbed and I don't understand it. Here's the story:

I didn't mention it on here but last Saturday, I felt like I was instrumental in saving someone's life. It was a neighbor. What happened was that she collapsed and it happened outside of my bedroom window. I was the only one responding to her and she was unresponsive to me because she had a seizure.

I called 911 and got other neighbors to help out because I didn't know how to handle it A couple of women helped her out and I felt like they did a great job. She was taken to the hospital.

Now she's fine as of today, but I only saw her in the distance. It appeared that she gave a couple of the women (who helped her out) a small gift box with a "thank you" card. I never got one. I feel really hurt by this. I feel like I don't deserve all of the credit, but at least a little something.

I would feel hurt, if that happened to me. Perhaps, the lady who collapsed was confused as to the role you played. When you attempted to rouse her, she was unconcious, so she didn't realize what you were doing.

Still, when she conversed with the ladies who helped, they might have filled her in on you summoning first responders. If it were me who passed out, I'd ask questions to know exactly how aid got to me. So she seems remiss in not getting the story straight, or she just felt like buddying up to these ladies for some reason. If so, that's not very nice.

[Rose76]

I woke up this morning feeling like I snapped out of depression. What a relief. Have to clean my house now. Place is a mess.

[nonightowl]

Oh gosh Will, that sucks! I agree with Rose. Still you are a kind person and deserve thanks. I know what it’s like to do nice things for neighbors or anyone really and get no acknowledgement.



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[Rose76]

I feel so much better. Had a good sleep.

[unaluna]

Will, that is not nice at all. Maybe she is friends with the women and doesnt know your name?

I hope she wasnt peeping in your window when she collapsed.

[Calla lily12]

Will, I'm sorry that happened. You should have been thanked for helping her.
I've been very tense, scared and depressed. I had a very hard therapy session today and haven't been able to stop crying. My analyst is on vacation till next week but he said he'll answer e mails. I just want the panic and crying to stop. Its wearing me out.