[nonightowl]

Originally Posted by will19

snip: ….along with putting up with the heat and noise.

On July 4th they started shooting off fireworks and firecrackers at 6:30, hours before sunset and it lasted until past midnight! So little sleep and felt like crap all day long the next day. As much as I hate the end of the year holiday season, there’s no fireworks. Still it lasts 2 months…. I can’t win. I’m glad August has no holidays and I won’t hear about the big holiday weekend and the plans “Americans” have. Not me.

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Today was eventful. I went to the Lab in the morning for blood work and got my results rather quickly, which was nice. The results were pretty good so I'm happy about it.

When leaving the Lab, my sister called to tell me that my brother got COVID and didn't sound well. He had called her because today is her birthday. I gave him a call later in the morning. At first he sounded very low but it seemed like he was picking up near the end of the phone call.

After lunch my sister called again and told me that my cousin's husband had passed away. He was 90 years old. I wasn't surprised because he had been in failing health for a while (congestive heart).

My poor sister had to deal with some bad news on her birthday today.

[Buffy01]

I’ve been dealing with feeling depressed by forcing myself to get up and move around

[Rose76]

Felt bad today and did nothing all day. Depressed.

I've been feeling depressed and anxious all day today. Even exercising hasn't helped like before. I'm feeling like something bad is going to happen. It's a common feeling for me. Maybe it's because it's the time of year in which I feel that way a lot. Or maybe my brain structure has changed. I don't know!

[Calla lily12]

All I can say is bad...very bad.

[nonightowl]

Originally Posted by will19

I've been feeling depressed and anxious all day today. Even exercising hasn't helped like before. I'm feeling like something bad is going to happen. It's a common feeling for me. Maybe it's because it's the time of year in which I feel that way a lot. Or maybe my brain structure has changed. I don't know!

Yesterday I cut my gym workout short because it felt like such a chore, like flossing. Also I wanted to get home and shower before the janitor comes. I hate that she comes after business hours now, making so much noise dragging that bucket on wheels around. My bathroom is right next to the walkways and garage so I get all the noise.

I’m sick of the same club but it’s walking distance and traffic is getting so unbearable around here that I don’t know if it’s worth it just for a change of scenery. And I definitely need that. I’m sick of everything even my exercise class at the senior center. Sick of the same music and same steps. And that place too.

Like you I’m afraid something bad will happen. And I’m sure it’s because I don’t know who I would call. To exacerbate that feeling, I’m getting bombarded with political scam texts like asking me for money, instead of real friends or family.

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Originally Posted by nonightowl

Yesterday I cut my gym workout short because it felt like such a chore, like flossing. Also I wanted to get home and shower before the janitor comes. I hate that she comes after business hours now, making so much noise dragging that bucket on wheels around. My bathroom is right next to the walkways and garage so I get all the noise.

I’m sick of the same club but it’s walking distance and traffic is getting so unbearable around here that I don’t know if it’s worth it just for a change of scenery. And I definitely need that. I’m sick of everything even my exercise class at the senior center. Sick of the same music and same steps. And that place too.

Like you I’m afraid something bad will happen. And I’m sure it’s because I don’t know who I would call. To exacerbate that feeling, I’m getting bombarded with political scam texts like asking me for money, instead of real friends or family.

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When I exercise and go bike riding, I do them alone. I workout in my apartment. I feel like I'm too introverted and overwhelmed to go to a gym or workout class. I feel like I'd have a lot of courage within myself to go to a gym or a class. I think you have a lot of courage to do it for yourself. I prefer to workout by myself; and then I love the music I workout with because I picked it all out myself instead of having it picked for me.

There are times when I feel like I can get tired of working out and going on a bike ride. There have been times when I was about to say "screw it!" and not bother. But I always ended up doing it. Sometimes I feel that way about cleaning, too.

I feel like it would be nice to have someone who would have my back. I like living by myself but I feel like it would be ideal to have a neighbor to have my back and I could have their's. Unfortunately that's an impossible dream. If I could have something like it, it would help with my dreadful feelings. By the way, I have a couple of doctor appointments within a couple of weeks that I'm dreading.

[Rose76]

Depressed. Saw the psychologist today. The hot weather makes me not want to do anything.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Rose76

Felt bad today and did nothing all day. Depressed.

I am very

[nonightowl]

Originally Posted by will19

When I exercise and go bike riding, I do them alone. I workout in my apartment. I feel like I'm too introverted and overwhelmed to go to a gym or workout class. I feel like I'd have a lot of courage within myself to go to a gym or a class. I think you have a lot of courage to do it for yourself. I prefer to workout by myself; and then I love the music I workout with because I picked it all out myself instead of having it picked for me.

There are times when I feel like I can get tired of working out and going on a bike ride. There have been times when I was about to say "screw it!" and not bother. But I always ended up doing it. Sometimes I feel that way about cleaning, too.

I feel like it would be nice to have someone who would have my back. I like living by myself but I feel like it would be ideal to have a neighbor to have my back and I could have their's. Unfortunately that's an impossible dream. If I could have something like it, it would help with my dreadful feelings. By the way, I have a couple of doctor appointments within a couple of weeks that I'm dreading.

I haven’t been on a bike since I was a kid! Anyway it isn’t safe here now, whether driving or not. I’m female and with the random and unprovoked attacks on women it’s hard to do anything sometimes. Oh this is where we are opposite, I’d get too lonely exercising at home. I don’t have the space nor equipment and motivation would be impossible. It helps to have others around also working out. I have a lot of acquaintances there that I just say hi to and have a bit of small talk. It actually exacerbates the loneliness but though we have the same personality type, I need some human contact. I enjoy the 80’s music they play and the air conditioning is central unlike at home.

My exercise class at the senior center is weekly but I only go if in the mood. I’ve gone to that class 2 years but to that place 10 years. I’d like a better run and staffed place but there’s nothing local. There’s one near downtown but I don’t want to drive that far. And parking is scarce and costly!

Thank you for saying I have courage. It’s auto pilot for me since I’ve gone to the gym for 27 years and the only place I can go to get out. I get stir crazy in this apartment.

Like you I wish I had someone that had my back. I’d certainly reciprocate. The neighbor who said she’d check on me never did call. And it’s been a year.

I crave close friendships but have just one who’s out of state. It’s very fragile to have just one person.

It feels safe posting in your thread. All I’m going to do is laundry and vacuum the dining area. Depressing. I’m still able bodied but I’m getting older as we all are, and I can’t do as much in one day like I used to. The weather is forecast to be hotter and more humid, “great”…….

I hope your doctor’s appointments go okay. Let us know if you’re comfortable.



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[Rose76]

Need to do laundry. Trying to work up the motivation. Still depressed.

[nonightowl]

I forgot to say I tried sending an email twice to that other senior center farther away. I asked are they considering opening another location in this part of town and nobody responded. It takes 5 seconds to send a message saying sorry not at this time. Or no not at all.

Tomorrow I’m picking up books 📚 from the library. I’m reading a lot to escape my life and this country especially this election. That’s the highlight of my life. And now I have to call my cell carrier because of unknown numbers or phantom calls as they say.



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I just finished cleaning. I'm happy that the cleaning is done and the inside of my place seems better for now. But I'm feeling very depressed now that it's over. There's a special event going on close to where I live and it's a bit noisy. I don't need noisy stuff going on near me.

[nonightowl]

Originally Posted by will19

I just finished cleaning. I'm happy that the cleaning is done and the inside of my place seems better for now. But I'm feeling very depressed now that it's over. There's a special event going on close to where I live and it's a bit noisy. I don't need noisy stuff going on near me.

Yesterday I spot cleaned some areas of my carpet. I forgot I had some cleaner that you spray on, let dry and vacuum. I had to give it overnight to dry because it’s not hot enough for that task. But I’ve been putting it off and it gave me a sense of accomplishment that I needed. I don’t have to do it for awhile now.

My next door neighbor isn’t usually up early but the last few days he’s been up. And I hear either his tv or him talking. Irritating. I had to use headphones and a fan as white noise to block him out. He’s a decent enough neighbor but right now I wish he’d either shut up or turn the tv off. Maybe it’s the chaos going on now that makes stability more important than ever. Damn apartments. My upstairs neighbor definitely is no early bird but I came home to him stomping around since its mid-day now.

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[Rose76]

I've gone 3 days with no depression. It feels great. Now . . . if I can just make this last awhile.

[3rd rock]

I'm feeling very hopeless, I don't think there's any end to the pain. It's just a question of how much I can endure before I finally give up.

[Buffy01]

I’ve been feeling really down especially after being yelled at by my sister today

I'm feeling OK now. This had been, what I would call, "Hell week" a little bit. Tuesday I had an injection at the doctor's office and yesterday I had a check up at the dentist. The check up went well, so it's a relief. I went out grocery shopping today at 8:30 and thought that I would have a problem with parking when I'd get back because of all kinds of activities going on. It turned out I didn't have a problem when I got back, so that was good.

One little thing I'm miffed about is, two weeks ago, I purchased a couple of new disposable mops. As soon as I first used them, they broke when I ringed the water out. I called the company (I don't want to name them) and explained what happened. I was told that they will send me replacements. It was almost two weeks ago when I called and, as of now, haven't received it. I called a few days ago inquiring and was told that an order was placed but not shipped out yet. Sounds like that company is going downhill. I had a problem a couple years ago one time and called them about it. They were really good at taking care of it. Not this time!

[Genoke]

I am so exhausted the day after I do too many errands/ chores in one day. The anxiety is horrible. I need to learn to limit myself and learn exactly what those limitations are. Then expand them slowly.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I've gone 3 days with no depression. It feels great. Now . . . if I can just make this last awhile.

congratulations

[nonightowl]

Originally Posted by will19

snip:

One little thing I'm miffed about is, two weeks ago, I purchased a couple of new disposable mops. As soon as I first used them, they broke when I ringed the water out.

We are in the same decade age wise and it seems to me that things aren’t built to last as long as before. I’m sure it’s about money. It forces people to go buy another, whether it’s a pair of shoes or electronics. And because of more and more automation, there’s fewer humans answering the phone at call centers. Fewer human cashiers at the store too.

Also pisses me off how fast the battery drains on my phone, even when idle, on low power and without apps refreshing in the background. And even when NEW it was like that.

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[unaluna]

I now leave my android phone plugged in pretty much all the time. There is a thing in it now that doesnt let it charge over 80 or 85 pct. When it starts going wonky, i know i have to replace the charger / cord.

[nonightowl]

Originally Posted by unaluna

I now leave my android phone plugged in pretty much all the time. There is a thing in it now that doesnt let it charge over 80 or 85 pct. When it starts going wonky, i know i have to replace the charger / cord.

Isn’t that dangerous? I thought it could cause a fire 🔥?

It’s not supposed to overcharge I know but….. I don’t trust it.

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[unaluna]

Originally Posted by nonightowl

Isn’t that dangerous? I thought it could cause a fire 🔥?

It’s not supposed to overcharge I know but….. I don’t trust it.

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No, you can see it on the screen, it never goes above 80 or 85. It depends - well i dont know which it depends on, software or hardware! But the capability just recently appeared , like the last year or so, after a software update.