[nonightowl]

Originally Posted by Calla lily12

Snip: You should have been thanked for helping her.

I agree. Those women should have given you the credit for being the first to help and not take all the glory for themselves. People suck.

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[Buffy01]

I feel very hurt by what my two sisters said

[Rose76]

I was down with tummy sickness today. I'm better now. 3rd day without depression.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Rose76

Depressed.

me too

[3rd rock]

I actually wrote 1,000 words today, in one day, for the first time in several weeks. I'm trying to radically alter my style of writing by forcing myself to work within certain confines in terms of word counts so as to produce something much more readable and accessible to the average reader, with an eye towards getting this book published when I'm finished. I have a timeline of the end of the year for a first draft, and then a final draft by the end of June next year. That will mean about a year I'll have spent writing this thing overall. To be honest, it's only the delusional fantasy of becoming a successful author that really gives me any hope for the future. I choose to cling to that fantasy because without it, there's no hope, and all I'd be doing is just waiting away the days until I inevitably pass. And that's too gruesome a future to really contemplate seriously.

[Rose76]

Still not depressed. The heat does take away my energy. Tummy pain was bugging me this morning, but gone now.

[will19]

Nothing much has been going on with me lately. This is the time of year when I tend to feel the most depressed and anxious. It can be a challenge to get out of bed in the mornings because of it. I have three appointments coming up that I'm dreading within the next month. It seems like bad things tend to happen to me at this time of year; along with putting up with the heat and noise.

I personally want to thank all of you who replied to me last week. I was very touched with the nice replies and care for me for what had happened for me at that time.

[Rose76]

Very depressed.

[Calla lily12]

Is it ok if I give safe hugs to all who feel depressed?

[3rd rock]

I'm going into treatment on Wednesday, so I've been cleaning my apartment. I'm only doing this in case my landlord needs to enter my suite for some reason during my absence. He's already done annual inspections earlier this year, which passed without incident. But I still need to make sure my suite is adequately presentable in case he enters for other reasons. I drew up a task list and schedule a few days ago, and I've been working it as it's written. I've allowed myself plenty of time, considering that my suite was already in basically presentable condition. Today, I cleaned the floors in the bathroom and kitchen, and I cleaned the toilet bowl and shower. Tomorrow, I'll vacuum, take out the garbage, and tidy up in the bedroom.

I've completed a chapter on my novel, and now it's on to the next one. I hope to have a draft finished within the next 8-10 weeks. If so, I can probably finish a rewrite by the end of the year. Then I have to find readers who will be willing to read a copy and give me critical feedback, which I can incorporate into the third draft. I hope to have the novel finished by the end of June, 2025. After that, I can begin the arduous attempt at getting published.

My mood is more or less stable. I haven't had any crying spells for about a week. I've been sleeping okay. I'm apprehensive about going into treatment, mainly because it involves being surrounded by a group of new people. We'll see what happens. I intend to work on my novel while I'm in treatment, during my downtime. I hope to be able to write an average of 1,000 words per day. I think that's possible, given the schedule at treatment. There's lots of time given for what they label 'client free time.' I can use that time to write on my phone.