I want to die

Escanor · 11:35 AM

I don't know how this works, and if im even in the right place, but my wife insists that I do this. its all confusing to me , as I am not good with technology but apparently this may help.

I have constant thoughts of dying, wishing something would happen

Possible trigger:

and even sometimes on my bike at high speeds just nearly swerving into an on coming truck hoping that at 100kms hitting a truck at 70 kms would be enough to go instantly,

but im too scared not to die.

Possible trigger:

ive been in a coma and spent a year in hospital before after being beaten up

and still am perfectly fine physically not, so i fear not being able to die and rather ending up disabled in some way im too weak to try kill myself, or not brave enough but im slowly building the gall because my life has turned to ****. everyone thinks im a hero but my wife absolutely hates me, my thoughts are constantly negative about myself, im a alcoholic and i want to get it done while my daughter is still young, so that she doesn't have too many memories of me.

ive never been physically abusive but my wife claims me to have been verbally abusive, which I deny. her main issue is that i am not much of a man though, useless. I motivate, educate and support my daughter emotionally and financially as much as i can but i am claimed to be an absent father, although I am over weekends when im hungover.

there is so much more but I dont even know what this is so im just going to pres send and see

TheGal · Jun 17, 2024 at 06:41 PM

Please don't hurt yourself or anyone else.

You need help.

It sounds like you have a brain injury causing you to become depressed. Alcohol is a depressant and is contributing to your dark thoughts.

Please go see a doctor, asap. Tell them what is going on...

Nammu · Jun 17, 2024 at 07:01 PM

Give AA a try. You can get lots of support and ideas

VabGirl · Jun 17, 2024 at 07:19 PM

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TheGal Poohbah Member Since Aug 2022 Location: The House Posts: 1,198 2 819 hugs given	Jun 17, 2024 at 06:41 PM #2 Please don't hurt yourself or anyone else. You need help. It sounds like you have a brain injury causing you to become depressed. Alcohol is a depressant and is contributing to your dark thoughts. Please go see a doctor, asap. Tell them what is going on...
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Nammu Crone Member Since May 2010 Location: Some where between my inner mind and the solar system. Posts: 73,927 (SuperPoster!) 14 57.2k hugs given	Jun 17, 2024 at 07:01 PM #3 Give AA a try. You can get lots of support and ideas __________________ *Nammu* …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann
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VabGirl Member Member Since Jul 2021 Location: virginia Posts: 323 3 35 hugs given	Jun 17, 2024 at 07:19 PM #4 Many of us know how you feel. We are here for support and understanding.
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