thanks to everyone for all the hugs, they felt so good. I went to see my T today and she tried her darnest to help me realize that everything is not my fault. But, change is hard especially since I have felt that way all my life. We tried to remember some fun and free of guilt times. I couldn't. Maybe one or two. The birth of my son, the birth of my granson. My marriage did not get off to a good start but I really loved him and would follow him every where. I cryed so hard every time I go but I had to chuckle at the end. I was at the check-out window when my psyc walkes by and the back of her dress was caught in her pantyhose. I know it wasn't nice but I got so tickled. No, she didn't know I laughed. I just couldn't believe that so many office workers didn't tell her. wow! I have had similiar things happen to me and I do laugh at myself. We have tornado watch tonight till 3am with wind, rain and lightning and my joints are really hurting. again, thanks, I love you guys. puckyj
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