Sometimes...

If I close my eyes, I can still here your voice. Still feel the comfort of your words... the comfort of your presence.

Sometimes, I can feel you with me in my heart. You live miles away, yet I know you're with me, holding me.

Sometimes I forget the simple pleasure of having you there. Knowing that I'm safe because you're just a floor below.

Sometimes I can still hear your laugh. Picture your smile. Remember how you lit up a room just by walking in.

Sometimes before bed, I pretend that I'm still there... in my room there... pretend that in the morning, I'll wake up and see you at breakfast.

Sometimes I just keep reminiscing over the times we've shared. Moments we've had. Love I felt.

But sometimes... sometimes it just hurts too much.

Sometimes I'm so hurt by whats happened, that I'm angry with you. I feel betrayed and fooled into feeling so vulnerable.

Sometimes I can't help but feel like you've rejected me. Most especially, because I don't hear from you any longer.

But most of the time, I just feel foolish. Foolish for loving another, foolish for investing myself so much, and foolish because I thought you actually cared.

Sometimes it hurts so much I can't breathe...

(((((Jacq)))))

you are always so beautiful to me...

(((((nowhere))))

you're always too kind to me

((((((((((((Jacq)))))))))))))))))

Want to talk?

Safe hugs lovely woman. I'm sorry you're hurting.

((((((Jacq))))))

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(((((((((((Christina, KJ, Sweet))))))))))

Thanks you guys... hugs always help.

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Thanks ((((((((Fuzzy))))))))))

Woah I think I just got knocked over!

how are you today ((((Jacq))))

((((((Kalamity_Jane))))

Thank you for asking. I'm feeling a little better about things today. I have an appt with my T tomorrow so i'm hoping to be able to try and express some of what i wrote to her. I think me just saying those things out loud to someone else might give me that little extra nudge to finally "getting over" this person... lord knows its been long enough.

sending you all my best wishes that T goes good tomorrow...and i will keep you in my thoughts, you deserve to be happy

jacq, I'm sorry this has been weighing so heavily on you. Your initial post really conveyed how deeply you cared. Unfortunately the heart lets go in its own time. If it didn't hold on like that, well, would we really know the love was real?

You're such a kind person here, I hope you feel better soon.

Cyran0

((((((((((((Jacq))))))))))))))

hope the T appt goes well. Here for you if you want to talk.

((((((((KJ))))))) Thank you

(((((((Cyran0)))))) You're right... as always. I suppose we wouldn't know what love was really capable unless we were able to feel both ends of the continuum. You too are a kind person

((((((Christina)))))) Thank you friend