[imapatient]

Does anyone else find themselves "living" in imagined situations in their head in ratio to their level of depression? I've found myself getting very, very depressed in the past 6 weeks and it's as if the worse I get, the more time my mind spends fantasizing conversations and situations. It's like I do it but am watching it happen it at the same time; I know I'm doing it in the moment but can't stop.

I've gotten to the point where I'm in bed 14-6 hours a day and it's as if, because reality is so painful, I fantasize ever more and more.

Do others do this, too?

[ECHOES]

It sounds like the gulf between your fantasies--what you wish for, conversations you wish so much you could have in reality--and the reality itself is where your depression happens. Avoiding pain sometimes is harder that looking right at it and letting yourself feel it, so you can get through it.

Do you have a therapist to help you with this?

[imapatient]

No, I don't have a T. Had a bad termination 4 years ago, sworn off T's, and am now in desperate need. Met one yesterday for a special treatment program, we didn't click, and I ended up feeling worse. I have one thing that I'm trying today to get help or help finding one, but otherwise I'm starting from scratch.