[chrise]

Ive been in a really bad place for too long. Ive been waiting for the light to come. But its not. Its just too hard to hold on this long. Nothing is getting better. I have like every symptom for depression, cant eat, sleep, think, have no fun, enjoy nothing. Feel like a robot just going through the motions. I dont really know what this is, its like i daze out and like watch a movie or something. But i still do things that i dont remember. Mostly driving. Its hard to come back. I just cant take living like this anymore. Im only existing. They have changed my meds. Im in a partial program. Is there no hope for me? Is that light burned out forever? Why go on?

[Christine1123]

You can make it, there is hope. I know it may not seem so, but you can and will get better and be happy. Be patient with yourself. Rome wasn't built in a day. These things take time.

Please read this site. Please.
http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/

[Puffyprue]

(((((((((((chrise)))))))))) the light is always there depression makes u feel this way..
dont give up i believe in u...

[tarabug922]

Chrise,

I know depression is difficult, especially when you manifest so many of the symptoms. I want to encourage you to keep trying different medications until you find one that works well for you. Keep coming to PC and reaching out for support here, it does make a difference even if you can't see it. Know that the reason for continuing is the love that others have for you and their belief that things will get better.

love and hugs,
Tara

[Capp]

Originally Posted by chrise

Ive been in a really bad place for too long. Ive been waiting for the light to come. But its not. Its just too hard to hold on this long. Nothing is getting better. I have like every symptom for depression, cant eat, sleep, think, have no fun, enjoy nothing. Feel like a robot just going through the motions. I dont really know what this is, its like i daze out and like watch a movie or something. But i still do things that i dont remember. Mostly driving. Its hard to come back. I just cant take living like this anymore. Im only existing. They have changed my meds. Im in a partial program. Is there no hope for me? Is that light burned out forever? Why go on?

((Chrise))
Depression puts blinders on us that block out any light that is there...times like this we rely on the help of others who have been through the same thing.
It's hard and hurtful right now, but it will get better.
Trust us, please...it does get better.

Cap

[Angel_of_the_Past]

((((Chrise))))

[turquoisesea]

I'm sorry.
I hate the numb feeling i get too. i don't have control over it. I hate it.

Please keep trying.. Going through the motions can be just as horrible as feeling pain, and when you have a choice between the two.... well it seems like there's no point x.x
I'm not saying it's going to magically go away but... take someones hand, let them help you, keep trying.

Sorry i can't offer more, I hope you can feel more alive soon
just remember... that in this numbness, you are protecting yourself, maybe.