[jai-jai]

i'm going to book an appointment, and i'm taking my boyfriend with me, which makes me feel more comfortable i guess.

i can't move colleges, i've looked into it, and i can in september which i might end up doing, but i'm not sure. Me and my parents had an argument about it last night and it was good - and they don't want me to go there because they don't think it's a goood education, but they don't really know how unhappy i am, and they don't understand.

i've been trying to find evidence that i was on medication - but i can't because my mums gone and hidden every little bit of paper work about me - including my birth certificate. I don't know how to deal with them at the moment.

Everythings getting too much, me and my boyfriend had an argument last night because of all the hightened emotions, and i felt horrible for saying the things i said, but he's fine with it all?? But i want to know that he means that, and he's not just saying it.

My sleep patterns are getting worse, and i've been getting less and less sleep since christmas, and it's making me irritable and in a bad mood all the time, and i've tred everything to sleep but i just can't - i'm always too stressed or hyped even if im trying to relax it's the worst feeling during the day - like i've been out alll night and i just want everything to end - i want to feel better!

i hope that helps
thanks

[Cthomas]

Well just posting here usually does I hope when you go to your appointment things go better for you. I know a good session for me leaves me wanting another....and feeling somewhat peaceful.

I wish the same for you!

Colleen