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Feb 14, 2009, 11:04 PM
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Welcome to My Life
Current mood:  disappointed Ever stop and wonder how your life has ended up the way it is? I do all too often. I am 22. At this stage I am supposed to be a senior in college and on my way to a great career. Pity. I spent my glorious time at school hiding beneath the staircase crying. Instead of studying I stayed in my room trying to escape from the reality of depression. So, here we are. I am a loser stuck trying to fix my screwed up life. It wasmuch easier when I didn't have a choice in life. Every meal...dictated. Social life...nonexistant. Responsiblility...all too much. Room to screw up....none. Everything was so out ofmy handsI didn'thave to worry about the future, just the present. I feel like I am back to that stage. Except, now its my failures that dictates my life. Where do I go from here? All I see in my future is paying the consequences of what I have done with the life of freedom I have lived these last 5 years. How I went from hopeless to success and back to failure I don't know. 10 years of hell and 5 years of working for success and I have earned an "F". When can I go back and take a remedial success class?
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schizoaffective bipolar type PTSD generalized anxiety d/o haldol, prazosin, risperdal and prn klonopin and helpful cogentin |
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#2
Feb 15, 2009, 01:08 AM
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((((((((( HALLIEBETH ))))))))))))))))))
I am sending you some hugs.  Everyday is a new chance at success, please don't feel like a failure, the thing about making decisions is even when they aren't great decisions we still learn from them and the next time we can make a better decision.
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Feb 15, 2009, 03:13 AM
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Hang in there. I feel like I need a remedial class too. One thing to be glad of is you can never repeat a horrible day over and at least you are learning from these mistakes. You will get through this and things will get better. You are not alone
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Feb 15, 2009, 09:53 AM
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i was just in a bad mood. sorry. im happy again.
 although i posed that on myspace anda guy imtalking to saw and says i needmore self confidence. i dont wantto scare him away!
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Feb 15, 2009, 03:19 PM
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do u know why your "success" regressed to "failure", as u stated? do u see a therapist and pdoc?
for me the therapy was the key to my remaining stable along with compliance with meds. i may have been very fortuante i realize. do u feel that perhaps your meds are not working as well as they once did? please try not to feel like a failure. you've had a setback but that doesn't mean you can't be "on top of your game" again. hope you'll reply to my post so maybe we can get a better picture of what went awry. we care about how you are feeling!  
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Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark, in the hopeless swamps of the approximate, the not-quite, the not-yet, the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish, in lonely frustration for the life you deserved, but have never been able to reach. Check your road and the nature of your battle. The world you desired can be won. It exists, it is real, it is possible, it is yours..~Ayn Rand |
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Feb 15, 2009, 03:46 PM
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church really helped me today. the message fit me so well that i understand what i need to do.
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Feb 15, 2009, 04:39 PM
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Glad to hear that church was helpful for you .
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