[FireBird]

You fire now and the gov does it because down I go. Like stocks up and down and for me as I am the you know thing sucks. Depression is suck and manic I wish for me. The things are that will launch and die and they lie for you. Controlled by gov and aliens because me is something that the TV and computer error always crashes like car. Millions die and why because of me, the biggest burden. I am the fault of mom's infection I did it and doctors are evil and stuff and enough things that put me down. Happy face no way, the cows now will bow to me like my bird. The bomb the gov is tracking and my neck will detonate blow up the world and my fault again. Depressions and Great Depressions are me and what the country is why my fault, did I say that? Things like wow neat in my machine brain, snakes are there machine snakes that look like it. The greatest news that my psychiatrist lowered the pills of death and that is the best news but he is the evilest one he thinks psychotic is what I am and I'm not. Neurotic is correct. Tears can't fall from the sky like the birds but my face can't do it for no reason. Gov is always in me and my house, the gov is great because spying is fun, they are commanding me for the test of death like the pills of death which I can never want. Fly away, fly away into the moon and stars but cant breathe there. The jetpack on the thing my back needs something for nothing they installed it the nanobots and big machines. No emotion on my face. Just flat like paper. Depression kills but not suicidal mom is thankfully alive, just barely God saved her. Think or not think why the thing or nothing something but repeating stuff. Help!

[nowheretorun]

yes, sounds like depression alright Fire, with all that happening in my mind (and something similar has) at times the paranoia and fearsome fears threatened to overcome me.... but stand strong Bird...

what you are speaking of, were it true, means that the microbots have found a way into your being... what you can do is retain control of the inner sectors of your personal energy called 'chi'

this zone gives you ultimate power and control according to certain ancient lines of thinking....

from the chi zone, one commands every facet of its own being..

it may command all thought to depart the mind even....

it may replace negative fears with positive in the blink of an eye..

with training, the stream of thought power is grown until complete control is given to your own calm inner being and in that state, you are able to levitate but, that takes very long to achieve....

there are also such ideas as food dieting to match excellent sleeping skills...

do you have access to any philosophical work which defines a humans own inner power?

such as..... Confucius or another pre- modern thinker?

or, gather power in your area... watch helpful people helping each other... this should give you hope...

and, monitor the incoming.... dark thinking is manifested from within dark presentation..

same with hopeful thinking.. hopeful creates hopeful...

finally, if you are not doing anything the CIA or other body of investigators would be interested in interrupting, i dont think you really have to worry... they might in fact assist you in your duties

i hope your Mom is ok