 |
| FAQ/Help |
| Calendar |
| Search |
|
#1
Mar 24, 2009, 05:16 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
I have had 6 hours of sleep in the last two days. I'm leaving for the airport at 3am so I'm not going to get any sleep tonight either. I haven't had this little sleep in a long time, and it's the product of stress, pulling a couple of all-nighters trying to get assignments in, and trying not to be dependent on my sleeping pills to get me to sleep at night.
But I've come to a realization, being this tired. TIREDNESS and DEPRESSION feel different. When I'm depressed I'm forever saying "I'm tired", "I'm exhausted", "I just want to go to sleep". But ... it's not the same as actual, physical exhaustion. I'm too tired to get up right now. Too tired to shower. Too tired to pack. But it's not the same kind of tiredness that comes with depression. I'm not in a low mood right now, so mentally I think I'm still all there. I don't want to go to sleep to hide from the world, or because the thought of doing anything makes me tired. The depression sends me to bed, but I usually can't sleep without taking pills. This non-depression-related exhaustion is going to make me pass out as soon as my head hits the pillow. I don't know why I wanted to post this, but it's kind of a big deal for me. I didn't realize that what I thought was tiredness was ... something else. The product of my own thinking and the depression simply defeating my efforts to do anything. It's ... empowering, I think. I dunno. Maybe when I get low next time it'll be easier to pull myself out, now that I can ask myself if I'm really tired, or if it's something else keeping me in bed. I'm not sure if that makes sense. Like I said, I'm REALLY tired. But I feel like I've just had some kind of epiphany and I wanted to share. 
__________________
Rebecca "If you're going through hell -- keep going." - Winston Churchill It's better to live your own destiny imperfectly than to live an imitation of somebody else's life with perfection. - Elizabeth Gilbert Bring on the wonder, we got it all wrong, we pushed you down deep in our souls, so hang on. Bring on the wonder, bring on the song, I pushed you down deep in my soul for too long. - Susan Enan http://igetupagain.wordpress.com/ |
|
#2
Mar 24, 2009, 05:45 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
thank you for sharing... I had kind of forgotten that, but I know exactly what you mean. They are two very different things
*hugs*
__________________
 Yesterday I was so clever, so I want to change the world. Today I am wise, so I am changing myself. |
|
#3
Mar 24, 2009, 06:13 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
I understand exactly what you mean as well. Physical exhaustion is almost a pleasure compared to mental exhaustion.
__________________
The End The End The End The End The End The End The End The End The End The End The End The End The End The End The End The End The End The End The End The End The End The End The End The Beginning 
|
|
#4
Mar 24, 2009, 06:46 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Yes they are very different. Physical exhaustion goes away with rest, depression tends to get worse, I think. Sweet dreams floating!! Thanks for sharing.
|
|
#5
Mar 25, 2009, 02:20 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Post away! We all get it. So its safe here. i too try to understand the difference. i find it amazing that it took me so long to fiquire it out and not even sure I have it yet.
__________________
 froggie2 |
| Reply |
This is an old thread. You probably should not post your reply to it, as the original poster is unlikely to see it.|
|
My Support Forums is the online community that was originally begun as the Psych Central Forums in 2001. It now runs as an independent self-help support group community for mental health, personality, and psychological issues and is overseen by a group of dedicated, caring volunteers from around the world.
Linear Mode
