[kjb1985]

Maybe this belongs in anxiety forum im not sure. The only way i can explain it is i feel uncomfortable all the time, not myself. I get what i call "depression attacks" where it comes over me like a wave taking all my energy and life along with it. I get anxiety attacks as well, along with obsessive intrusive thoughts which i cannot stand. Seriously? depression anxiety and ocd? Even if good things happen or work out for me in my life im still miserable. I got custody of my son because his mother is not mentally capable of taking care of him and now im feeling like i may be unstable, or maybe its just the anxiety talking. I take care of him, i go to school, and live my life but sometimes i think its a miracle i even get out of bed or do anything. When i ask myself about a situation or a problem in my life i always come up with the same answer " I dont know ". Ive had to deal with alot in my life but i dont think it was that bad to where im feeling the way i do now. I try my hardest to overcome all this i really do, i got medication [ citalprolam ] and xanax as needed, i try eating right, exercising regulary, vitamins, and bla blah bla nothing helps me! Will i feel like this forever? am i still young enough where i ca "grow out of this?" im 24yo now ive been dealing with depression 10yrs now but anxiety and ocd is more recently in the past year or so. Maybe im getting worse?? help?

[jennaorgana]

im only 21, so i don't think i have any right to give any advice... but i am very hopeful that things will get better. no matter how hard you try to take care of yourself, if you don't deal with the problem underneath all of this, then things might never get better. i assume since you've got meds you are seeing someone regularly, and thats huge.

getting custody of your son must've been so stressful. being a single parent is never easy, especially when the mom isn't stable herself and can't really participate. maybe this is all an adjustment period for you, you know? we go through that a lot in life, and maybe this is a good example.

all i really wanted to say is HUGS from me... but hey, i got a little sumthin sumthin to say

i know someone much wiser than me will post really soon, and you'll get much better advice. until then, just try to stay present.

hugs, again

[kjb1985]

Any advise given by anyone of any age is welcome, so thank you. It was quite stressfull and i keep telling myself the same thing that it is an adjustment period. No, im not seeing anyone regulary i had just gotten the meds through a primary doc, i know i should see a therapist but ill have to wait til health insurance kicks in in a cpl weeks : [

[perpetuallysad]

I think you sound stressed out to me. I know that's really not a technical term, but considering that you are going through so much stuff, its probably the case. Also, did you have this "not yourself" feeling before the meds? If not, it could be that you just sense the change in yourself that the meds create? Depression and anxiety are horrible beasts, so I am really sorry you are going through this. Your best bet would be to try (when your insurance is ready) to see a psychiatrist for a more accurate diagnosis and then, if you can, start seeing a therapist. Both will help you a lot towards feeling more like yourself.

[kjb1985]

No ive had this not my self feeling for awhile. The meds do help a bit, because i tried to get off them and noticed a huge difference. All the stress and major life changes i had were about a year ago, so i dont know howlong it will take to adjust. A major factor i think was being laid off from my job and having idle time on my hands, but then i also think maybe im too stressed/depressed to even handle a job right now if i could even find one. school is hard enough...i dont know i just wish i had answers i used to see a pyc/therapist but it didnt seem to help, then again that was awhile ago

Get help, kjb. So much of treatment is trial and error. You have to persevere.

Good luck.