[humors1]

hello, I have posted here a couple of times but I really dont know anyone and today with the heat and the pain combined with tons of other stuff I feel so alone.

I am 38 years old and am an amputee below my leg, I have fibromyalgia, 4 ruptured disks (one i think is just herniated), CFS, plus mental health problems. I have a psyc. therp. but my whole world as I have known it is being turned upside down. And my older sister is moving in with us for a little bit but I am so stressed out. she is very assertive and I am the polar opposite. My wheelchair makes squeaks and it drives her nuts and I am just up at her current house helping pack, what about in my home living with it.

I just needed some place where I can say how I feel and not feel as guilty.

[NuckingFutz]

Right there with ya in that wheelchair. WD 40 and learning you can say anything here or in your head. Notice, as she gripes her body language and how miserable she is making herself.

[humors1]

ty very much....tried the WD 40 and it works some places but im just not sure where the thing is squeaking at. I know my last post was just a mess but I know Im supposed to reach out and its hard when your in the middle of an anxiety attack, no sleep, pain, heat, humid and I thought we were going to get to go home today....I have had to come up to my sisters house 5hours away to help keep her stable until we get her moved.....but I was supposed to go home for 2 weeks before she moves and spend time with my girls (they are teens but I miss them like they were little)anyway the trip got put off until tomorrow afternoon, just felt like another stomp.
thank you for lending an ear (or eye in this case) at least it is almost night and that will cool it down some and sleep will make the time go faster if I can just get to sleep.
take care, humors1

[NuckingFutz]

Your welcome. I know how hard it is to reach out when your thoughts are racing and your heart is beating a mile a minute. Hang in there and keep reaching out. I am reading and I am with you.

[humors1]

I cant say thank you enough for your kindness....you said you were in a wheelchair too, its none of my business but may I ask why? I am a below the knee amputee and I have a leg made for me but the ruptured disks in my back wont allow me to walk but more than a few steps.

It is quite hard reaching out, I dont know the etiquette (not a good speller) and I am afraid Im going to complain too much.

My sister is Bi-polar (we have known for years because she has always been manic and fit all the symptoms) Suddenly she went low or very depressed. I thought we were going to lose her, so I have been in NY 2 weeks every 2 weeks since January and I live in DC. Anyway I have never seen her like this and it scares me.
it is hard to give advice when you dont follow it your self but I was trying to help her with stuff I have been told in the past. anyway now we are having to take her in to our home and i am scared to death. It really puts me in a bad place psyc. and physical. I dont know it feels like I have been sucker punched in my belly over and over or one long anxiety attack. But what do when it is family. The only peace I have is that she will hate living with us (which provokes problems) so she will find her own place quickly I believe ((I hope!))
Im sorry to go on and on...It does help a LOT that I can have this place. Sometimes it is the only strand I have to hold on to.
ty and Take Care, humors1

[NuckingFutz]

Not in a wheel chair...was on crutches on and off. People seemed bothered by the squeeks thd rubber feet make. Either way sometimes you get stuck. Wish I could give you more support. Hang in there!

[humors1]

How are you doing? You have given me ideas and I was self absorbed....I dont know what area you are in but it is hot and humid here. Today I am back at my home....we bring my sister down in two weeks but it is nice to be home. There are more comforts here. I hope this finds you well
Take Care, Robin

[mrkmyword]

Hi Robin,
I feel for you first let me get to the important stuff.

Gotta start off with good hug.

I'm not in a wheel chair - but I do understand the anxiety, heat, insomnia, pain, worries, the whole gambit.

I have MS and I had to move back in with my mom after I separated from my spouse. My mom has lived on her won for 30 years. She has her quirks as I do, and then some.
It's taken me about 2 months to calm down and not feel its the end of the world.

If your sister is on meds and she can be reasonable when talked to then try talking to her. Explain how you have tried to fix your chair the noise is not done on purpose. This is really not your fault or will to make the noise

I guess being reasonable is relative and I hope you can reach your sister in some way. It sounds like you are scared. But you are in your own home. Home is the place you feel safest do not let her take that away from you.

The heat sends me into an emotional meltdown
I hope once you can sleep well, things will become clearer. Usually works for me.

I hope I didn't sound patronizing.

Take care and hope to see you here again.
PM me if you like

BTW I'm still a newbie so not sure about protocol - but that shouldn't stop anyone from asking or saying what they feel - if you stumble some one will let you know

[lorna]

((((((((((humors1)))))))))) I find family one of the hardest group to deal with when disgusting pain and how to help it. They shouldn't be annoyed with things you can't stop though thats just cruel.

[humors1]

You know, I did not think of the fact that it is my house. I guess because I have always been the little sister and taken a lot of cra* over the years I know how bad she can hurt me sometimes and I dont know if I am strong enough even in my own house. Your very right about being scared....I am trying not to let it show bacuse of my daughters (they dont need the stress) I just cant believe it is only a week...whew I need to calm down...be back soon
take care, hurmors1

[humors1]

Sorry your feeling sick...take care humors1