[Marylin]

I am struggling in the heat to manage my diabetes and I also have hypothyroidism, I suffer sleep apnea and bladder weakness and have a spinal misalignment which affects my mobility.I feel very low in the hot weather.I have no one to comfort me I am all alone and it feels so very very lonely.
I feel awful physically too.

I am meeting my niece on friday looking forward to that but otherwise I am so very lonely I almost feel like I am disappearing and am going to cease to exist because I am on my own so much.It hurts I am in pain.

[Skeezyks]

}}} Marylin ! {{{

[Marylin]

Well the sleep apnea has me waking up four times during the night but Dr finds my oxygen levels high so not allowed extra oxygen at night.
Dr is more worried about my heart and angina so have to have an ECG and be referred to heart clinic for tests at the hospital.
Also I am five years into the menopause and had period pains and some blood so have to go to hospital and have a camera put up to rule out cancer,that scared me,I hope I am clear.
Got to see physio too because my back is more hunched than ever and it hurts to stand up straight.
I wish I had more strength in my legs so I could walk further.I felt like I was dying today,I am slightly out of breath whether I am walking or sitting down.Dr says it is my heart.Got to stop the red meat and stick to white meat and fish.I am happy to change my diet.I lost three stone from stopping the insulin and DR was happy with my blood sugar levels,they are well down from what they were even when I was on insulin.I have to lose a lot more weight.
I had blood taken today for a diabetic review.They will check my 3 monthly blood sugar levels and my heart,kidneys,liver and thyroid.
If I can improve my overall health I will be happier.I am back at the doctors next week for the ECG and to see the physio.

[Marylin]

So last week I had the hysteroscopy where I had a camera inserted to look at my womb.The doctor that did it said it all looked normal in there,no signs of cancer,there are biopsies been taken of the lining of the womb to check for that.I could see my womb on the screen.I had polyps which were removed and a fibroid which was left alone.
It was uncomfortable but she gave me a local anaesthetic so it didn't hurt too much.
I am still getting period pains so I am going to ask to have the ovarian cancer blood test it is call a CA125 test.
Today I went to a cardiology appointment with the nurse.I had an ECG done and my BP was taken and it was good 122/90 that is the lowest it has ever been,last time the doctor did it it was 168/101.So I don't know what made it lower today.
The nurse took a full medical history.She is referring me for a stress echo test to try and find out what is wrong with my heart if it is angina.I am having infrequent attacks so she thinks it may be indigestion causing my chest pain,so they are going to do tests to check and make sure it isn't my heart causing the pain.I am in good hands so feel lucky!

I am to wait for an appointment to come through,they will give e drugs to speed my heart up and take ultrasound pictures of it to see if the blood flow is as it should be to there.I don't know when that will be?The appointment may come through next week.

Last night I got period pains again,no bleeding this time.It was very painful I had to take paracetamol for the pain and I was clammy and sweating too.

Today I can rest.I have a massage booked for 1pm. This woman does massage in peopl'e homes.A full body aromatherapy massage for one and a half hours.That should relax me today at least.I haven't been able to afford a massage for ages! I am looking forward to it.
So as usual my life is full of the aches and pains and I have one health issue after the other to deal with.That has been the case for 28 years.Thankfully I do have some good times and some pleasure in my life so keep on plodding on!

[StarBlue]

Hi Marylin, You're not alone. You may feel that this is so. But it is an illusion, some kind of trick the mind will play when it's rooting for the ego. It's favorite pastime is to keep us in the pit of darkness and deep in grief. Maybe Shane's words will help move you into a better, more colorful perspective and give you a bit more cheer this day. He is good with imagery and good with words, plus, he's been there - and done all of this. And probably doing more, and then writes about it. We all need an outlet for the pent-up angst. To let it go and let out a sigh of relief. To tell the paper, enough - this is what happened and now I'm honoring that but putting it to rest. Easing my mind and coaxing my heart out of hiding. Listen to Shane. May it be a new day and a new way of being in the world for you. Enjoy

Originally Posted by Marylin

I am struggling in the heat to manage my diabetes and I also have hypothyroidism, I suffer sleep apnea and bladder weakness and have a spinal misalignment which affects my mobility.I feel very low in the hot weather.I have no one to comfort me I am all alone and it feels so very very lonely.
I feel awful physically too.

I am meeting my niece on friday looking forward to that but otherwise I am so very lonely I almost feel like I am disappearing and am going to cease to exist because I am on my own so much.It hurts I am in pain.

[Travelinglady]

(((Marylin))) I'm glad the doctors are working to see what's wrong with you. Heat is bad for some conditions, I've discovered. I'm sorry about your challenges.

[Travelinglady]

Originally Posted by Travelinglady

(((Marylin))) I'm glad the doctors are working to see what's wrong with you. Heat is bad for some conditions, I've discovered. I'm sorry about your challenges.

I find that trying to occupy my mind helps. I read, watch TV, get out and walk (the best I can), order things on the Internet , come to Psych Central to talk to other people, etc.

P.S. I take Levothyroxine for low thyroid.

[Deejay14]

Keep going! Hope you enjoyed the massage.