a new therapist--sort of

well, we r bout ta embark on a really scary thing...havin a new T...well she aint new ta us but we havent seen her in 15 years...was very weird...we saw her b4 we wuz dxed with DID, but she did dx us with BPD... She has always been a very tender, compassionate woman, who we saw shortly after her graduation from masters program...we r scard ta death cuz we donno what its gonna b like but at the same time r heartened cuz we know her...but she is the one we showed Sharon to in our writings...she din know but she did encourage us not ta give names ta things...how wuz she ta know what wuz goin on with us...we never hinted at nuthin till we told her bout Sharon...who is the scribe after all...so she has had 15 years ta develop and expand her skills...an we have had 15 years ta write down so much...we rnt gonna show her even half of whats goin on yet...we just dont go in ta trust her even tho weve known her for a long time...ta say the least we r quite ready for anothr T who can help us sort things out...but first things first...gettin ta know her again...an decidin who is gonna b out for the first meetin...some say i should go...but im not sure thats wise an im sure yahna would want ta b in control of things...so we will let her decide...an we will let u all know how things go...believe me when i say that...

I think it is great that you are approaching this with an open mind. I understand when you say you wont totally turst her right away. I think that is a good idea. 15 years is a long time and ppl change. Please keep us up to date.

Diana

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Just wanted to say good luck. Give it some time, no need to go quickly. You can build understanding with her I hope, especially since she was so compassionate last time you met with her

our appt is monday at noon...an all hell is breakin loose as we get closer an closer...not cuz we wanna have no part of her...but cuz we know how close she got an how close we came an rnt sure we evn trust her ne more...that was a whole lifetime ago an now its almost here an we r scard ta death almost...

abbi

abbi,

this doesn't have to be a bad thing. you can take things slow and go at your own pace.

if this T was a good T back then, chances are good that she/he is even better and more skilled now.

i believe you that it is SOOO scary, but somehow i am hoping this will be a new beginning of some very good help coming to you. this T may be able to help ALL of you in appropriate ways. we want help for all of you jewels. you are all valuable as jewels are valuable.

we really think this is far more likely to prove to be a good deal than it is to just be scary. BUT, we remember how hard it is to believe things when our feelings are running sooo hard and anxious. we will talk to God and ask for help for you until you go and for when you go on monday. we go to T on monday at 1 pm and so we will think of you all. sending you hugs from our favorite bear, rusty,

leslie and her pixies

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I think the leslie and pixies are right - your therapist probably has learned alot from all her year in the field.

*holds your hand through this*

I think it's a good thing that you aren't fully trusting her yet. That sounds safe to me, for your situation.

You can ask her if she's changed her mind about diagnoses...and what she thinks of DID. That will tell you right off if she's still stuck on dxing BPD instead of DID now.

Take your time, you have both changed, and hopefully for the better!

We really hope for the best for you, Jewel.

H.

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