[Poohbear13]

I have been worried ever since I started seeing my new ts about whether they would put me back into the hospital if things got to much for them and me to handle. My old therapist would put me in there whenever things got to be too difficult for her to deal with me. There even a couple of times she called the police.

But today during my session my t told me that they don't believe that hopitalizing a person with DID is a good thing. There are not that many places that know how to deal with DID patients and they are not a place were people with DID can feel all that safe. I was lead to believe that I don't have to fear heading back to the hospital while working with them.

My trust level just went up for them and since I have been having a tough time with trusting my ts, this is definitely a plus sign in working towards trusting them 100%.

I just wanted to share that with y'all. Thanks for listening.

POOH

[Piper16]

So glad to hear that! Sounds like a breakthru of sorts in the trust area.

[Kiya]

That is totally awesome!!!
"my t told me that they don't believe that hopitalizing a person with DID is a good thing."
My T told me the same thing =) Tho... not to burst your bubble (as mine was) but just good to be aware that this isn't "forever and always". I assumed it was. But 2 days after I was sui, I told t about it and I didn't think i was going to be allowed to leave the session. She said "Kiya, at this point I would have you hospitalized". I freaked. I reminded her what she said - that we agreed it was not a good place for DIDers. She said "that doesn't mean Always - you seem to be in danger, you could have died!" The only reason I wasn't hopsitalized (i believe) is that we freaked out so much about this new change.
It is totally good that you have a T who understands!!!! Keep that trust! Just remember, if things REALLY go downhill, it may still be a possibility. I was rocked to the core and scared for a long time. I didn't even tell her all of what happened, not until last month (so like 5 months later), just to be "on the safe side". Kiya

[turquoisesea]

I'm so glad

Hospitals are scary places and it's so important to be able to trust our T, congratz I'm so happy for you

[Hunny]

Poohbear13

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Take care,
Hunny

[multipixie9]

i am really glad you did not go into the hospital. i think your T is right about hospitals not being good for those dx with DID - unless it is a special place just for DID'ers where they truly understand.

i've had two short "stabilizing" hospital visists when i was sui and they helped me to calm down and not do something rash. then a time came and i went off the trolley tracks after my mother died and it was really bad. i had my longest stay ever in a psych hospital - this was even a locked ward. i learned some important lessons about psych hospitals in my section of the world (dallas, texas). I felt so unsafe there that they finally told me i was getting no more than 2 hours of sleep a night, not a helpful situation. they did not know i was DID then. i was crammed into group sessions, art therapy and anything they could find. at 2 1/2 weeks i knew i had to go home. in fact they moved my name up to the "more well" category and said i was safe enough to go for a walk by myself but then when i tried to do that they sent an aide with me. they sent me home, even though they knew i was not better because my insurance had run out.
the best i've seen these hospitals do is calm folks down when they go into a really bad spot and help those who have quit functioning to get to eating and moving and speaking and regular life stuff. few if any hospitals can actually cure much of anything because psych issues take more time and help than insurance has been willing to provide. jerks!

BUT I LEARNED A VERY IMPORTANT THING FOR ME: i do NOT look to doctors, hospitals, group therapy and all the psych set up system to "cure" me. all they can do is teach me little tricks to keep on functioning. All the real cures/improvements have come in working with my T and my God. It takes some really special help to heal DID because of the depth of abuse, fear, shame and betrayals that happen so early in life and cause us to split and find any way we can to survive childhood.

these are just my experiences and conclusions based on what i saw and did there. i am not trying to be down on the folks who really care and sincerely want to help. HOWEVER, i saw a lot of time and money wasted in the hospital i was in. they said the offered a lot of help and it was just peanuts. i hate when people lie to me or misrepresent things to me. it's dishonorable.

still disillusioned,

leslie and her pixies

[Crew]

YaY!!! hip hip horay YaY!

What is really great is hearing you say your Trust level went Waay UP YaY Poohbear, were so proud of you! Hoot hoot time to party. Don't have to go into the hospital AND Trust went up. I hope everyone sees what you wrote about all parts but the "T" word that stinky, moldy TRUST Word its not as stinky or moldy for PoohBear anymore, YaY!!
dancing for POOHBEAR hip hip Horray yeah!!!!! Way to go Poohbear ThaCrew

[Poohbear13]

ThaCrew:

thanks for such a wonderful response. You are right that "T" word, trust, is much less a bad word for me anymore. I am learning to trust just a bit more and that is a GREAT thing for me right now.

thank you agan for your response. It made me smile a lot!!

POOH

[Jewels]

You GO girlfriend! I am so proud of how you have hung in there and have really braved the elements of the possibilities of being in H and how your T said no. But I am with the others that no doesn't always mean no, but it would take a month of Sundays for my T to send me to a H. I'm glad your trust issues are improving too! You rock my friend!

Yahna, the main Jewel

[Poohbear13]

I am encouraged by your many responses and have taken note that just because my ts said they don't think the hospital is a place for me does mean they won't put me there if I need to be. I am strongly aware that if I am a danger to myself or others that is where I will go. I guess what I was trying to say is that it will take a lot for them to put me there and that has encouraged me to trust them more. I don't have to be so afraid of telling them my secrets and my thoughts because they have told me that they are not afraid and can handle me. That is the encourging news for me.

POOH

[multipixie9]

Whoo Hooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It is good news. Trust and less fear is just awesome! I know this gave you a little peace inside and that is such a good thing. I am VERY HAPPY FOR YOU!!!!!!!

Leslie and Pixies

[Eriksplus]

Congradulations!
We are all very happy for you!
Not only is being able to trust/like your T VERY important (we still have issues with ours), but hospitals are TERRIBLE, as we know.
fate has smiled upon you!
Erik