Trying to tell T

Had T appt today. Last week I introduced myself to this board as someone who had been diagnosed DID seven years ago but never believed it; however, am now beginning to think it's true. Actually, recent work with T (is it me, or is using "T" weird?) and memories has seemed to stir very different moods that seem to be antagonistic. Anyway, I was afraid if I brought it up that she would run.

So today I told her another memory and didn't feel anything. So she asked me about inner child and I told her about the child that's in me and way down deep in a dark corner. She inquired about bringing her out; however, without telling her my suspisions about DID, I talked around the issue. "Bringing her out would be very difficult." T asks, "Why?" "Because there's a lot of layers to go through to get there." Can't remember what T said after that. Later, though, I said "Some layers are protective and others very mean to the child." T asks, "How long have you known this?" I respond, "Well, let's just say that I've never really believed it until recently." T says, "That means this process is working."

So I'm sitting there thinking that she understands what I'm trying to say without me having to say it, but later comments made me think differently.

Anyway, last comment was me asking her, "Please tell me you won't give up on me, no matter what happens." She agreed which made me feel good, but some moods are doubtful.

So, what do you folks think? Did she understand that I'm meaning possible DID?

Hmmmm, well, she knows something is up, but I think linking that conversation to you being previously diagnosed with DID is a little bit of a stretch.