a letter of thanks giving

anderson · Dec 06, 2009, 05:58 PM

This is weird for us, when we first came here we honestly thought that all people with DID/MPD thought alike. Wheal we thought wrong many of you have had a long and beneficial relationships with T. I have had a few good matches but most because of how many we are they just waved there hands up in surrender as new groups showed up. So in truth I don’t really blame them but I am still hurt by some of the choices they have made about me. (ALL OF US).
So how did we heal, by grace is the first answer. The second answer when we could no longer go on our own we found PC. Those of you here gave us the missing peaces and someone to let us know that we are not alone. I read a quote from Eleanor Roosevelt that said “ my parents taught me well that I was somebody, So when someone tried to tell me That I was nothing, I known that person to be wrong” It is not exact but close. The woman that took me in and gave me self respect gave me the tools to find myself again but Her home was the only place that I was truly given the safety to heal for that I could never thank her enough for. Now I am an adult with many different parts trying to find a way home to the sense of peace that all of us felt when we were a child in her home.
The tools she gave us were from the lest likely places. Even the T in our life now just shake her head. She trys to help in her way but we always feel worse after so we went down in the time we see here. She was our last chance here in this town. So we tried she asks us why we had to tell her the truth after living the last three years of people hurting you for who and what you are would you trust someone that is like them. She agreed with me but It is no longer in me to train someone to accept me so they can help me . In fact my friends told me to stop going to her cause they could tell the difference in us when working with PC world and with her. Now my parts are calming down and all are starting to work together. For this I can only contribute to my medicine wheel training and authors that gave me the wisdom to change what I could change and let god take care of the rest. Some of the authors are Iyanla Vanzant- the value of the valley, a black women’s guide through life’s dilemmas, acts of faith only to name the two I keep beside me. Native American authors are SunBears, Lyn Andrews, and Jamie Sams. And a book called Emofree. Forgot the authors name. this is also called thought field therapy. But most important of all the angels that help carry me when I could no longer walk on my own. I hope in time to be as open an honest as those that are here already but with grace not from pain and sorrow.