Talking internally

...over a year ago we started to hear each other internally, starting with Wish, and talk amongst ourselves!

Today, we were reminded about the group therapy and chatting we do internally when we saw the circular bench with a hole in the centre. It is a leather seating arrangement where actually people are to face outward. When our therapist jokingly said he needed that for when he teaches group therapy we were hopeful he could help us integrate as he knew group therapy!

Example, coming out of the grocery store today I/we were able to say to one insider..."Stop being so critical...this is none of our business!" This adult protector would take up our whole mind, at times (we understand his protection for us). We just don't need his help all the time. It is surprising how we can chat while multi-tasking! The whole process is going forward slowly but we do see some progress!

Thanks all.

“Science without religion is lame.
Religion without science is blind.”
Albert Einstein

Some times talking to our own parts helps us to get control back quicker, than if I just let one take over. Sometimes I talk to my kids and they seem to take note. At least they know they are not alone.

Great post Hunny!

Thank you soooo much for sharing!

The point of internal communication or "inside scoop", for me is, to learn how to relieve myself of this "annihilation anxiety".

I got tired of shutting down and not knowing what was going on. This is ME. There was point in my life, years ago, when I would be curled up in the fetal position and it was like I was at a convention. I would hear all these voices, but none were clear. It was like hundreds of people talking and I could not understand even one. They all were mumbling and every now and then, one would be real clear and say something stupid that would want to make me rip my head off.

That was over twelve years ago. I thank god its not that way today. With me taking the lead at the convention, (and practicing this talking internally), I have learned how to ask inside, very nicely, please, one at a time and all will get a turn.......wwwooooohhhoooooo!!!!!!!!

This, of couse, takes patience and practice, but as compared to the alternitive?.....Yes.....litterally, I do have war stories..............

......................sparrowstail.........................

((((((Hunny and Sparrowstail))))))) we be talking and working togerther. WE just don't want to remember bad things yet. the no namers cried when the dalmations took them with in the group but it was the social group acceptance that really made them cry. they alone no more. They be with other dalmations and are learning the ropes on how to be a real dalmation they noo longer have to protect us they just have to be family.And know we all love them no matter what. thank you for helping not only them but us to know we be wanted by somebody.

Possum, Sparrowstail and Anderson,

Your affirmations mean a great deal to me in light of this internal dialogue. Seems like we were taking stock of our situation and when that happens there is a lightness as fewer all are talking at once.

Just not wanting to leave any of them out but sometimes actually forgetting some of them exist. Taking gentle authority over them with inclusiveness and 'good' familial way. I'm not great with the 'family' word but could use hive or some other way of working together.

It is a better family (perhaps like a bears den or flock (family) of crows (that be what I am)) way with all your help here. It really is amazing to know of all your experiences and that we all at different stages and all have our own ways. It gives me confidence that I can do this!

Pain only comes when the new ones arrive on scene and we have to almost start at beginning with them like with Chicklet but so far treading water and even coming ashore. Mixed metaphors but we bery tired. Didn't seems to take as long this time.

Must be brave again...for next round.

Thanks again,

“Science without religion is lame.
Religion without science is blind.”
Albert Einstein

So grateful to our therapist who painstakingly takes the time to go through this with us...seeing it all with a lightness of heart. These are extremely special and rare people who have been given great love and wisdom and ability to longsuffering with us. Can't thank enough and pray for more of these kind of soldiers to be born up amongst us to help more. We see the gift.

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“Science without religion is lame.
Religion without science is blind.”
Albert Einstein

.....and truly a gift they are..........

.....and my gift to them is............

.....to let them watch me............

............get better....................

Especially those therapists who choose to practice in the field of D.I.D.

The Dr. who I see, I have asked the question why D.I.D.? Her answer is, because I believe you, sparrow.

It only takes one, just one person to show and guide me threw this disorder...............and help me take the dis- out of order.........

Since I have been in therapy, she has focused on solutions and not problems, and the solution is very simple....internal communication or talking internally..........

Sometimes when I share my experiances, she gets all welled up(or ready to cry) and I dont understand why.

But, she believes me.......and she helps...........

You are so right that it only takes one person to help a person to start to heal thank you thank you all that have given a person a chance to heal just by listening to them.