[Hunny]

It is a horrible thing to be early sexualized. It is crazy watching siblings who were also and having fuel of stupid relatives adding to this, as well as a stupid society adding to this. This isn't children playing...these are adults harming us.

example: an uncle telling us when we were only 11 that we had 'bedroom eyes'. This is stupid, stupid, stupid! We get so angry we just want to kick someone!!!!!

Stupid! stupid!
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[anderson]

((((((HUNNY))))))) we here for u to,

[Hunny]

Thank you Anderson, we knew a bunch of stuff would come pouring out of ourself after we came back from t. It is good that it does. it is very small remembrances and then we sit with them till we can go back, one part at a time. We likes our new books. We thought we could ignore her but now we just need to say a huge thankyou to her for helping us stay stable. Did I just say stable?

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[WePow]

(((( Hunny ))))

yes - so wrong what is done to an innocent child
we know
we feel along with you and hide with you under the covers at night
we there hunny
you have friends now

[anderson]

We are all one with girl power!!!!!!!(((((((Hunny))))))))and (((((Wpowers)))))

[kasva]

((((Hunny))))...keep up the good work!!!!....we think you are great and kind and it is hard to work on this stuff

[Hunny]

yes, hard to but we NOT let them win..noT, nOT, NOT!!!

[darkpurplesecrets]

((((Hunny))))

Hunny you are so right. What is done to children by adults in a game that is not for kids is wrong. So many times it goes unseen and unheard. For between the lies and the threats somewhere lies the heart of that child that once was innocent and pure.

To fight is not possible. To cry does not work. To scream is a silent scream that is never heard. And by the time it is the damage is already done. And the devastation left that is not our fault we are responsible for picking up the pieces somehow and putting together a life that you know nothing about.

Finding a way to reach out through the secrets and the false truths that lie within the crumbled heart of a child that never was, and telling ourselves to keep going when we do not know how to walk. For us there is no understanding for there is no understanding the evil done.

And who stands accountable----seems it us. For so many times no one believes or there is no way to prove what does not show itself except within the selves or self that lies shattered and unable to be the person we should have been.

And we work and work to try to make some sort of life after. And we live through the memories and pain so devastating and so painstaking. Even then, we sometimes get lost. For the emotions of a child never were. And the adult trying to find those emotions cannot feel.

So we walk blindly and many times lost somewhere within. Trying to somehow find ourselves amongst the many. And finding the fear and confusion so real and devastating. But we walk.

We come here and we reach out. We listen and we support. We encourage and we find that little spark of hope. And we share and we understand.

Hunny, I was told the same thing----that I had beautiful bedroom eyes. I did not know what that meant until recently when I finally told and asked what that meant. Sorry you had to go through that.

Know that we care so much and are here for you. We understand and we are listening. Take care of all of you. And be kind to yourself. Sending many gentle hugs and loving thoughts my friend. Always.

dps

[Hunny]

Dark, you know we know you know and we thank you for saying all the things that we have to go through to find our way here to this really amazing place at PC that lets us practise, before we have to go out into the outside world with any learned changes and even still wounded but giving the 'Winning' side of things. (we hate the 'suvivor' word, ugh).

It take up all are life practically this early sexualization and then added fuel till we hardly know our indentity because it had to keep changing so much to please them all. They think one little thing shouldn't make a difference...yeah we get that but all those things combined caused more things than they could ever know. Now we search for her eyes to catch them to tell her we are here for now.

Thank you for saying we can do that here.

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[darkpurplesecrets]

((((Hunny))))

You can say whatever you need to say here. We all understand what you are saying and what you mean. So many times only one thing happened but that one little thing can stop one for life with no way to move forward.

But for so many of us, it was not just one little thing. And time seems all we have to try to put some sort of semblance to our being. And time is what we give you with us here listening and waiting for when that time is right for you.

We love you hunny.

dps

[Hunny]

Thanks we be getting there. Thanking for the gift of time...luv from us too. But we know we wouldn't be as okay with ourself today if it weren't us seeing from a distance that to be alive means going throse painful times and figuring out who is safe and who is not and they might be safe but they are stupid because they not look at us like gold, but like a slut and confusion was our friend after that. Our pain had to go to a separate part in order to survive the confusion and the consequences of their actions and words and our actions and words back..

We cannot believe someone actually makes a tv show out of this trauma. We find that disgusting and it not bring the truth to the light just some stupid blind entertainment for more stupid people to mock and laugh.
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[darkpurplesecrets]

((((Hunny))))

We understand and you are not alone in how you feel. How is real pain a joke or a story. You cannot tell from acting the true pain felt from a real situation. You are anything but a slut or anything bad. And think confusion goes along with it. We care too much and are here for you always. Love to you all.

dps

[Hunny]

Thank you Dark, it gets more intense closer to the next therapy time even though they be so gentle with us.

We will be back to say more.

Thank you for 'real' love.

H.

[anderson]

(((((Hunny ))))))) we be thinking of you. the pain you speak of is the pain we are dealing with we send safe hugs and teddies to you all. please know we thank of you even when we stay low okay