Stuck...

I am so stuck.

So not trusting.

Hard headed.

Not believing.

Wanting to disappear.

There is a swirling water called: Hell's Gate

We feel we are there or just above it

watching the swirling waters below.

Decisions, choices.

Preservation or risk all.



h e l p . . .

.

we help you swim the rappids with us. life is about holing on till you can not hold on no more. but it is easer to hold on to the good when you have someone to hold hands through the bad just know that even when we felt like we be sinking you all gave us hope to. we just remeber a show back in the 80's it was called the land of the lost. There be dinosores and slestacks. we be the only humans there but we will find the way home. wove u wister.

So sorry you're feeling this way, Hunny. We're thinking about you!

writing

I'm listening to you, like I know you've listened to me so many times before. I'm so sorry you feel so stuck. The light will come on again. Hold on and remember that darkness is simply the absence of light, we are all still here with you, in the darkness holding your hand, as much as we all are in the light.

big hugs to you Hunny, kp

What can I do to help you Hunny?

I'm sitting with you ((((((((((((((( Hunny ))))))))))))))))

EMBRACING THE REALIZED SELF
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
You are coming,
I can feel your nearness;
The wait has been so long.
I have seen you in my dreams,
knowing that you, too.
were waiting for me.
Your silouette,
on the horizon of my mind,
has made me anxious.
I am ready to share my cup with you,
to drink the dought of our creation.
I can feel you in this room,
smiling on my anxiousness . . .
With you has come the scent of mountain sage;
you know.
My preperation goes on,
so that I can be the chalice of your beingness.
Please hurry,
So swift a tast of your loving space
has left my heart fluttering.
You have gone,
but I reverently await you return.
Hunny, this poem is by jamie sams but we say this to each other inside and to the Great Spirit when the pain that we carry seperates us from him. May you find some peace with this poem.

the rescue raft made us laugh, Anderson
the thoughts you send, Writing, are so kind
KP we thank you for your care and concern
Peg, thank you for sitting with us,
you all made our hard icy heart melt
and
Anderson, our realized self feels far
from our GS, thank you for giving us
this poem to see we have a
path to make: 'Our Way Back'

We forgot about reaching out to ask for help
thank goodness we did and we got your responses
...just about a thing that we just can not do by ourself/ves
no way we can do alone.
Thank you all for giving us a reason to
take a step back from the cliffs
and to see the grandeur and beauty
of the place
rather than the swirling waters.

Love,
Hunny
:group hug:

So many feelings we feel the same at times. Feeling lost or above hell's gate, swirling in all directions at once, we have learned that these things are illusions that we face in the real world. So very strong they are to overcome when it hits.

We have learned to carry a small notepad with us to remind us of what we can do when we feel like this, since we are very forgetful. On this pad, we write these things:

1. Deep Breathe. breathe in all the way and out slowly as you
can. (concentrate on your breath) and look up with closed eyes till
feel calmer. Try to feel angels protecting you.

2. Think of soothing song or funny song and play it out loud or inside.

3. Write down feelings no matter how they come out.

4. We meditate on these lines:
This feeling is only an illusion. It cannot harm me.
Though I am afraid, I deeply and completely love and accept myself.
I release all self-judgment regarding these fears.
(repeat till you feel calm or calmer)

5. Friend's name, email address, and phone number, incase we need to
talk about it or refer to EFT.

Hope you feel better Hunny.

(((((Hunny)))))

((((Hunny))))

Our dear friend. We are listening and we are right here with you. You are not alone. Seems those swirling waters pull hard and can almost suck one into their grip. They seem to swell out of no where and grab you from even a distance away from the edge. But we will not let you fall. We all will hang on together.

Seems when the rushing swirl of the waters come they bring with them a noise that creates almost a deafening sound. So many times we cannot hear ourselves think and the waters almost mesmerize what we see and blocks those things from us that pull us back from that edge. We know where you are.

But you are never alone. For we are walking this path together and when one falls away from the path a search squad is called and we reach until that one is found and back on the walking path once again. For many times we may wonder off for just a little while, we may fall and feel the pain, we may shed tears and feel those fearful thoughts once again----

But never will we cry alone again, face those things alone again, or be abandoned again. In times that the storm comes we support, reach out, encourage, and cheer one another one. In times when the storm lets up we laugh, share, and give. Each time we get a little stronger. We may not see it but our strength is growing. We will never again walk at that beginning place and as long as we reach out, a hand will be there. For when one is too weak we carry them until they have the strength to stand again.

We love you my friend. Sending you many gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Always.

dps

((((((((((((((( Hunny )))))))))))))))

fadedspirit - xxoo
miracle - xxoo
dps - xxoo
fuzzybear - xxoo I have missed you, little bear.

the words of wisdom, coming alongside and hugs are so appreciated.



Our very smart protector, B Cloanie, had a plan of action in case we needed it. She always came through before. The head was hurting so badly the night before. She came out in our therapy session, thankfully with some help from our therapist and that is when we realized she is trying to help.

Thanks to her we are still alive, thanks to her she takes our risks to get the heck out of there if danger is near...trouble is she is such a risk taker and not everyone is comfortable with the risks. We needed to dialogue. Let's just say we are now communicating.

Thanks to all who kept us safe till we got to the therapist and were able to sort through the memories and find everyone concerned and address the needs.

The issue to be dealt with is not over but because we are communicating there is a plan to work it through together.

Honestly, I could not have done it without your taking hold my hand and hanging on till we got our senses and moved back from the illusion of the cliff.

Love,

Hunny

(((((Hunny and Bees ))))) safe hugs from all of us we hope things are getting calmer for you too.