[anderson]

……We’re at church today. So what is new for us? We finely found out why we are still here…….. When we left the other control group we had no time to heal to reclaim ourselves. So in the wisdom of the spirit it was decided for us to stay here until those that have hurt us here can not make us switch no more. Remember the saying what does not kill you makes you stronger. Right along with when can we recover from the cure? Because both hurt like heck.
……Most of us see the wisdom of this but it is so painful for us. Even when our logical ones put forth all the pros and cons. To live a life that few can endure, I still ask at night why me? Why us? But when told that this should be the last time that anyone can gain control over us. The path of least resistant is the way to go. When we were talking to each other, we remember that in a post that someone asked in adult hood if more alters could be created to that question we honestly do not know. I do agree with the point that dormant alters can be awaken under the right types of situation they can be brought to the surface to continue the function that they were created for. It is not until those alter become aware and that they have gained a sense of safety that they will share and grow with the community within. But the problem is the waiting and hoping for that part to feel safe and allow for guidance to bring that part into the whole.
…… The sad part is what we had to endure. Back in the ninety’s we were in the process of integrating but at that time we had such a hard time reaching for the younger parts because of the trauma that they held. The life we had was good and we had friends and those that we choice to make family. But even with all the GOOD things because of the fears held by those alter we could not fully enjoy what we had. In the end it was and up to a point being used against us now. The odd part is that those people that figured out how to trigger these alters of mine may have been able to trigger them but they did not have what it took to be exactly like those that had created us. Except for a few that did have it with in them to harm a person soul. The rest of them ironically did teach those parts that life was safer for us. The part that hurt us the most was the wagging tongue syndrome. This was the deed that hurt us the most. Then when we finely asked publicly for help….. How can those that talked about us expect what they are doing to us? Not to reach us. After 3 years of being the publics number #1 source of entertainment that what others where able to do our body but not be known to all of us with in the body. To those that choice to parcipate in the carnival ride of my life, you where just educated in the ways of how some of the private society do raise and train people to do what they want. For those that did have an alter under their control with out thought you did get the high of being able to control a human being with the appreance of that person not being aware of the events that transpired between this body and one of my alters. When we heal and grow together we do share and grow together. To say that everything does cross over we can not clam that but we do share emotions and warn each other of those that are considered a threat to the body.
……For now we see and understand the logic of making sure that all of our alters are free from those that have used us and made us a public source of entertainment. But we hope and pray that it will end sooner then later. But the knowledge that all of us now have a way to grow and heal does make the journey easier to bear. Even when we come here in pain we know someone is hearing us. Allowing us to feel less isolated. Those here make us feel stronger and safer from those that hurt us in the past and present. It is the isolation that allows those that wish to keep us under control that keeps us from healing and growing. We can not Thank You enough for giving us the ability to speak and share our pain with out being hurt from those in our past.