[anderson]

When we started this post at first we were going to dump again. You all know get off our chest all about the bad things others have done to us under the impression of that we would not remember it. Now if you stop and think about it these people were living under a God complex. Can you imagine all the false pride these people had being able to tell all of their friends. “I did this ….. And she did that .… “ The lengths that people will go to just to have a minute of false pride that in the end is nothing more then dust in the wind.
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Some of us even had the list to bad to worst event. But in truth a deed done to cause harm is really no different from each other. It was still done to cause harm to another, to take that person power away from them so that they felt in control over someone else. How pathetic are these people that have not learned that true power comes from with in. In the ability to accept and allow others to walk a path with out the promise of abuse because might just might be right. NOT>>> NOT …But so many people in today’s world have long forgotten that peace does come with in.
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Our pastor was in the Vietnam conflict he choose to be a medic instead of being the one to carry a gun. In his heart he is a warrior but choices to fight with words instead of a weapon. This man was probably the only medic that refused to carry a gun while giving aid to the fallen soldiers To him a gun represented all that he had learned to hate. To take a life , it just not sit well with this man.
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This man was trying to get us over our dislike over the KJV bible. It not going to work. For the simple fact in recovery from past abuse there will be things that everyone of us will choice not to deal with not because it triggers loud negative responses but the fact that it represents a time that had more pain then happiness for us. The KJV is not bad. Just like guns are not bad in themselves. But it is how people choice to use them. Both items can be used for good or bad it is the person holding them that decides if it is being used for a tool for good or evil. So when I asked him if he would pick up a gun by choice he said no. That’s when I asked him then why do you expect me to ever choice to pick up a KJV Bible. To those with in this Body that book means the same to us that the gun means to you. He did not answer but we hope he finely got the point that we were making.
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But giving the foolishness of man we are not holding our breath. It goes right along with the fact that we have been asking for someone to hear us instead of a group of people that clamed to know us. The only thing that these people known is how to hurt us and to turn the good people in our lives away from us.
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Number 1 reason to run away from a T is if that person tells you or any one around you do not acknowledge or talk with you as a person if you do not act in accordance to accept able behavior. In this I mean acknowleding different alters. This is an attempt to isolate you and cause you more harm. No person can live without some type of human contact. The fact that we got so lonely that we finely accepted conversation with people that hurt us in the long run. That finely made us think that we no longer had any real friends here.
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Number 2 reason is if that person tells you that they can not help you if you so not take medications.
If a T or P-Doc tells you or your friends or family these 2 things please run. This person is only out for their own self interest not to help you and your alters to heal. Life is hard facing the past trauma but when the people that your friends go to help them to help you do this it will only spiral you farther into the depth of heck.
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Would I wish what happened to us to happen to another person no. But I would not be human If I did not say that at times that I do. In a near death experience I have memoirs of being in a room reviewing my life. In these moments I felt all the pain and happiness’ that I helped other felt as I watched my life flash before me. Now I do not want to sound like no angel but it is from this memoir. That has allowed me to let go of so many things once we have found some peace inside. Just think that when those that have hurt us so much goes to meet their maker if what happen to me/us is a real memior. Then at that time they will have to feel all the pain and sorrow that they made us feel. Now it is better late then never. But most of all it is the freedom of being able to sit back and watch these people dig their own hole that really gives us peace. Revenge is a desert best served cold, But it is so much better when it come with no effort.
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In all these years since we moved out here it was with a belief that we would be able to live well and prosper. But because those that had power to manipulate The facts so that we could not overcome our pain till we no longer had to endure for the safety of our son. It was then that we shocked the community because all the things that had worked in the past to keep us in check no longer worked on us. The person that took custody over our son, we shocked him for the sole reason that we finely told him do it or we sign him over to the state. For he finely came of age in which he could have a say in where he was placed. We no longer had to worry about him being forced back to our Bio-family.
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Now you want to see people crap their pants I wish we could have had pictures of these peoples faces that had made a name for them selves on our pain. For we got to tell them publicly and with out shame Kiss my butt. My son is free and that if I should die today I know where my soul is going. And you have no say in that. Even the ones we trusted tried to get us to calm down and be the docile victim that the dark souls told them that we were not. It only strengthen our resolve to be free. From all of them. I guess some of these people really did care because now instead of taking the word of others they are coming talking to our face. These are the people that are starting to give us hope in the real world. But again we would not have been able to talk with these people calmly had it not been for PC world giving us an out let for all the BS that we had endured.
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In a past post from one of the people that we consider as a friend. It was about a Doctor telling why some people have survived the Holocaust and server abuse. The main reason is the hope of a better future. Now this true for adult. But as children we had to learn a way to protect our selvs from things that could have destroyed us but did not. We survived because we were able to separate our mind from our body until the time that we were in a place that we could heal from that which had happen to us in that past. Until we as a whole could heal and grow into the person that we were meant to be.

[justdontknow]

(((Anderson)))
Thank you so much for this post. I especially love the last two lines. That is so true and thank you for reminding all of us. I can't wait until Cris feels a little better and can read your post. You always bring us so much hope and peace. Safe hugs if ok and warm thoughts. Thank you again.

Faith

[anderson]

Thank you for being here and letting us know that we are not alone no more. May all with in find peace.

Originally Posted by justdontknow

(((Anderson)))
Thank you so much for this post. I especially love the last two lines. That is so true and thank you for reminding all of us. I can't wait until Cris feels a little better and can read your post. You always bring us so much hope and peace. Safe hugs if ok and warm thoughts. Thank you again.

Faith