[anderson]

Sorry for all the post but this feels like family to us. And we feel safe coming here to talk with all of you here
Tonight we are watching a waffle ball game our son is playing in it. And it is good to be able to just sit and relax and pick on him and the other players. Earlier today we read our post again most of them we remember but like those here it is good to listen for parts that need to share as individuals. The none thing that is different this time is that we are able to relaxed and not feel so on guard because of people trying to prove BS as truth. I guess we went off on enough people that word is getting around. The few die hard still make our skin crawl when they are near but it is more from their ugliness then that I/we fear them now. They can’t hurt our son so now we can fight like heck.
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One of the things that got our atteint was the fact that some of them sounded like we were putting down schizophrenia. It was not that but the abuse that we were mad to endure because mental health here said we had black out schizo so we could not know what we were talking about. The fact that the serve abuse happened after got a GED because we could not get a hold of our old records. Hit us hard we had finely got to the point that we could work as a team but crap hit the fan when we got it. That was when the lies and the rumors hit us hard we are still facing them but now with a different frame of mind.
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So we want to apologies if any one took it in affiance to how we sounded of. It was not the disorder that got us but how others choice to use it to justify the way they hurt us. I have lost count of how man times we sound off all the things that have happened to us. Life is so frustrating to know what is going on when we are not being hurt but when others hurt us we have black outs. That is the main reason why we refuse to go back to work is because so much has happen to us. We cannot say it did not happen but the fact that it was indorsed by the back door by the very people that should have been their to help us sucks.
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The fact that it has taken us this long to get those that we trust to stop and listen to us. Is mind blowing. To be the public prime time entertainment was not safe or good for us. But the fact that it is dark human nature to go after the week. ….. To get people to stop and see what their actions where doing to us …….. But since our last blow up it is getting better for the fact that we are able to be around people and not have them deliberately push us into a panic attack helps. The fact that Southern lady came out and reamed them a new **** helps a lot. We feel so much better because we no longer have to watch what we say or do to protect our son.
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And the fact that our reputation is so colorful it not like we can do it more damage. The good part is that as we are able to be more true to our selfs the more people are able to see us for what we are. Life is getting better but like our Nana always said “ Surger the more faith you get in your self the more crazy will be in your face. Just to see if they can get your power back from you. So don’t stop keep going !” Man , we miss not having her in our daily life but the strength and courage that she helped us develop would not have been there had she not been in our lifes.