[susierose]

I have come to the end of my intensive therapy of 8 months, I have my last day tomorrow. It was my first therapy and i am on a waiting list for Truamatic stress clinic for more therapy. I cant stand this feeling of numbness....I
feel i have lost all emotion and connections to my therapy i have just
finished. Like it never happend. its scary cos i dont why? this has
happend before with other things...I know it must be my DID that is
causing this . Any one with DID understand whats happening to me? or had the same thing? I have opened up in therapy about so much, And have even brought all my art from art therapy home. I need to know more about why im feeling or should i say not feeling like this.

[Hunny]

Susierose

You have done so well. Congratulations! It is so important to be gentle and patient with our self/ves and the progress, even if it doesn't feel like progress we have made. The therapy for us can can take some time. The process can be long but you are not alone. There are many here with you. Maybe you could feel safe enough to post more here, as you are able. Numbness is not a good feeling or like you say non-feeling but I understand what you are saying.

Originally Posted by susierose

I have come to the end of my intensive therapy of 8 months, I have my last day tomorrow. It was my first therapy and i am on a waiting list for Truamatic stress clinic for more therapy. I cant stand this feeling of numbness....I
feel i have lost all emotion and connections to my therapy i have just
finished. Like it never happend. its scary cos i dont why? this has
happend before with other things...I know it must be my DID that is
causing this . Any one with DID understand whats happening to me? or had the same thing? I have opened up in therapy about so much, And have even brought all my art from art therapy home. I need to know more about why im feeling or should i say not feeling like this.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by susierose

I have come to the end of my intensive therapy of 8 months, I have my last day tomorrow. It was my first therapy and i am on a waiting list for Truamatic stress clinic for more therapy. I cant stand this feeling of numbness....I
feel i have lost all emotion and connections to my therapy i have just
finished. Like it never happend. its scary cos i dont why? this has
happend before with other things...I know it must be my DID that is
causing this . Any one with DID understand whats happening to me? or had the same thing? I have opened up in therapy about so much, And have even brought all my art from art therapy home. I need to know more about why im feeling or should i say not feeling like this.

if this was me I would be checking with my doctors. some medical conditions do mimic mental disorders like lack of affect (not having and emotions connected to things you have or are experiencing), depersonalization, derealization, numbness. many medications can also produce this feelings such as antihistamines, antidepressants, cold remedies, analgesics.. some foods, chemicals, food processing chemicals and food allergies can also produce some pretty strange symptoms if you have a sensitivity to them.

I would also be talking to my mental health people because many mental disorders not just dissociative disorders and reactions can also mimic and produce these symptoms.

other things can make a person feel like this too like fear of getting better, fear of not getting better, fear and anxiety over beginning or ending treatment programs.

Some treatment / therapy programs and techniques do have elements of detaching the emotional aspects so that you learn to automatically remain stable, non emotional when dealing with your problems and everyday life. most intensive treatment programs that I have attended and know about through work and classes, do require the clients to learn how to look at their life and problems from a logical non emotional stand point and learn tools that will quickly bring them out of emotions such as anxiety, stress, panic attacks.. and do what they need to do to remain stable. if your intensive treatment program had this standard component of learning grounding, self nurturing and emotional distancing and addressing your problems in a logical manner its no surprise to me that you are carrying over this feeling of remaining emotionally detached as you terminate this treatment program. your body is doing what you need to do to remain calm and deal with the fact that you are ending a part of your life and moving on to the next step.