[anderson]

............Owning a Trigger with the help of an angel !
In the past when we where tight with those that we trusted there had been times that alters would come to the surface. At these times the men and women where just being safe and supportive to those within us. But somewhere along the line a few dark souls where able to slip in and hurt us. These people said that we needed a new person no matter what when alters come to the surface. This was how they where able to get near us and hurt us. It only took a few major hurts to make us not trust those around us because they thought because of the lies that we be afraid of them. Later we even heard that when the Dalmatians where out that we be looking for more then safe time out which made the others put space between us. We finely went off on some of the women and asked why would we want your husbands with all these scares over us. It got them thinking and walls are starting to thin.
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The worst part was that we just got tired of trying to overcome the lies that those that hated us for being different.
This Sunday we finely made a crake in the lines. They had came at us and they thought that they had intimidate us. So they thought we would be to scared to stand our ground but those that we trust had giving us two safety items that allowed us to hold our own. The two men that had hurt us in the past always had someone we trusted beside them. (They be under guard) and the woman just came near us long enough to whisper lies into the ears of those that where talking to us. We just looked at them and told them we be sorry because she was using our fear and the twisted truth to keep others away from us. We got the last laugh cause we told the person it be okay and we would still like to get to know them. They said yes and we can talk to them any time we want ! ! ! ! ! ! !
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We even got to ask the person in charge of the Stevens Ministry to come to a T meeting so that she could hear the real facts instead of all the lies and rumors. She declined but said that was not up to her but the pastor. The pastor is going to go to a meeting with us so he can learn the truth and we should be doing the membership procedure soon. So that we can become true members.
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But the most important thing that happened for us. Is that we got to own a trigger. Our Angel has this personal problem with having others in conflict near her so she has a couple of times tried to get us to make peace with those that have hurt us. With the T helps we got her to understand that we are splintered souls not a chemical imbalance. But with us telling her about our triggers we also saw how our early childhood programming was being reinforced by her and others that could not accept that the people that we call dark souls are able to do things that they are not able to do. It was her telling us in front of everybody at church that she accepted us and that she apologizes for trying to make us do things with those we no trust that a BIG, BIG, BIG weight lifted from our shoulders.
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For the first time in a long time we felt heard but safe from being giving to another person because we no longer wanted by safe person. With her help and her husband we even gave the Darkies a single finger salute. We may not have a magic wand to turn them into frogs but if we can get more real Mama and Papa bears and Goober Coyotes to help us feel safe the darkies wont be giants but be amebas to small to hurt us any more.

[purple_fins]

Oh! can I say-- you were oh so very brave!
hooray-- good work done.

we must be in a parallel healing universe...
as I just had a family member apologize to me this past weekend--(she's not been in our home for almost 20) after years of her being mean and telling hurtful horrible lies to others about me and insulting me all the time....she came to my home and she apologized this past weekend--- I couldn't believe it I'm still holding my breath in hopes that it is really real.... hoping..... hoping.... please let it be real-- hope she won't go back to the way she used to be... I'm hoping.

Trust can be so fragile for some of us.

Thank you for sharing your insights and healing path.
I'm ever hoping and wishing that things continue to go this peaceful, warm
direction for you

all the best-- my heart is with you,

fins

[anderson]

We would not be so brave if it had not been for PC World and those that held our hand as we faced our fears. Thank you for giving me a chance to make a new friend ans wister here in pc world!

Originally Posted by purple_fins

Oh! can I say-- you were oh so very brave!
hooray-- good work done.

we must be in a parallel healing universe...
as I just had a family member apologize to me this past weekend--(she's not been in our home for almost 20) after years of her being mean and telling hurtful horrible lies to others about me and insulting me all the time....she came to my home and she apologized this past weekend--- I couldn't believe it I'm still holding my breath in hopes that it is really real.... hoping..... hoping.... please let it be real-- hope she won't go back to the way she used to be... I'm hoping.

Trust can be so fragile for some of us.

Thank you for sharing your insights and healing path.
I'm ever hoping and wishing that things continue to go this peaceful, warm
direction for you

all the best-- my heart is with you,

fins

[Hunny]

Oh, Anderson, this is really going somewhere.

I agree with purple_fins too. Imagine in all your imaginings and me mine what it would be like to have someone come forward and make those ammends! I won't hold my breath but I surely think that much could happen internally with people breaking with their pride and false memories to come forward and admit they made a mistake or lied, or at the very least were in complete denial.

For me the fact that we went to counseling for so many years and are seeing the wonderful parts for who they are it has made quite a bit of difference and I couldn't be more at peace especially when 'owning my triggers'. The peace that comes from helping each alter find the peace by going through the hard work of therapy makes the whole system have a sense of calm.

Is there more to do? Of course, and I admire you for persevering. It may be that someday I report our addressing these 'masters of darkness' that we have come across 'before and since' finding out our dx. And yet, who knows, maybe a summer of fun and sun is more of what is needed right now...

I wish we could visit irl, but first we will see how all the counseling goes for you. Mine is kinda winding down for the summer, whew! It's been an effective but wearisome season of sessions.

wister

[Hunny]

Purple_fins,

You are doing so well for all that you have been through. Thanks for sharing your experiences and for giving us a sense of hope that we too may hear some good news of those who were living in the dark coming forward to share their "I'm sorrys".

You are a giver Purple.

Thanks,

Hunny

[Gr3tta]

Thank you to anderson, purple fins, and hunny for sharing!!
We do not even know how we would respond to someone apologizing, admitting to lying, admitting to doing wrong, admitting to turning a blind eye and cold shoulder when they could have/should have helped us.
We are so happy for the healing paths you are on!! You inspire us.
~Emma & Gretta