[anderson]

In so many ways when we are bring another part of us home we are so lost. For how many times can a soul be hurt not only by the original abuser but by those that have found ways to hurt those within. These people and we use this term loosely for the fact to call them a name of an animal would insult the animal. This time around it was from the very people that preached of love and forgiveness.
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These people became that which they professed to hate the most. This was the religious community that preached DID as demon possession but after 3 years of so called intervention that was mixed with server abuse to chase the demons out of us. We are all still here and my head has yet to go around in full circle.
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We were talking with our pastor this morning and telling him about how the different type of churches have treated us but this church was the only one to see us as hurt and confused from all the abuse that we had to endure just so that a small group of people could hurt us and not carry the blame for their actions. They even managed to get some of the people that we trusted convinced to repeat the abuse in the name of helping to help get alters unstuck from memoir loops.
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These are the people that had become true light houses for a lost soul trying to find peace and freedom from abuse at least in one activity in our lives. We still had to deal with bigotry but the physical abuse was toned well down. The few that acted out did so based on the lies of those that where no longer able to physically hurt us any more. With each alter that we were able to make feel safe those that scared us bothered us less to say that they do not make our skin crawl now would be a lie but the fact that we no longer feel like we are switching based on having them near us gives us more and more hope.
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The hardest part was getting others to understand that these people had in fact manipulated young alters to hurt. So even though they had hurt an adult body they had hurt the mind of a child trapped in the pain of both past and present abuse. The pastor I believe he understood this for the simple fact that each time he talked us out of panic attack of hiding a younger alter was present.
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In everything that has happened to us so far safety has been our biggest goal for it is only in safety that we are able to break down the inner walls that have allowed so much to happen to us. Those within are now experiencing something that we have not had in a long time. We had it for a short time a few years ago when we were with friends but lost that due to the fact the ones with a phd known more then us. But we found a group of people that realized that there is more to life then a phd degree and they gave us safety so that we could heal and grow as one again. Most of all Keeping the bad guys away from us so they could no longer splinter us from each other.
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That is the best gift of all . At this time we can not hide our switching but we are starting to feel that by not covering up who and what we are those that are using untruths to cover up their abuse are slowly but surly getting pushed out the door. So please keep us in your thought, that more people will come to this place with an open and honest heart for all those that need a place of refuge as they heal from what life has given to them.

[Jewels]

(((((((((( anderson ))))))))))

we are so sorry about the pain you have experienced at the hands of so called "professionals" and those that profess to be Christian. I know the kind all too well, as many have told me that those within must be a demon...well, many "deliverances" later, we are all still here. we pray that you will find rest within the church that you are presently attending...what a blessing it is to find refuge when all around you people are condemning you. we pray that more people would come alongside you to help you and carry you when you grow tired, giving you respite to rest and refresh yourself.

know that we are here and we understand. you are a blessing to us, and we look to you at times for encouragement because of all you have gone through and yet still stand strong. thank you for your example to follow.

[Miracle1986]

(((anderson)))

[Rhiannonsmoon]

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