What started this was finding an old wooden shadow box in a thrift store. It looked exactly like the one I had in my childhood bedroom where I kept my cherished possessions. I even dragged out my childhood blue ribbons I won at pony parties and attached them to this shadow box. I put it up on my bookcase beside my bed and before I knew it, I had gone on to redecorate my bedroom to resemble a childs' bedroom and I'm 60 years old.

What's worrying me is that my parts have been out of control recently and been experiencing big emotions lately and now this. I am not sure what the trigger is or where it came from, but it struck me as odd that I would re-arrange my bedroom to look like my childhood bedroom.

[anderson]

June bug,
all of our parts need time to feel wanted and safe.
were you safe in that room?
In truth those with in me change our rooms at least once a month. we even leave bubble wrap on the floor to let the littles make it pop.
The question is more of the fact are you comfortable in that room? are you safe? By given yourself a room that give you good memiors of the past then in truth , it seems like you are given a part of yourself a time and space to heal and grow in the ooutside world.
I/we truely hope that is the case that you are given yourself the ability to relaxe and just be.

Those are very good thoughts, Anderson. I was scaring myself for changing my room around like this. Never have done this before. I have been experiencing extreme stress recently and still going through it, so perhaps this change is helping me and nothing to be frightened of.

It's also interesting that your change your room around frequently. I felt better hearing that. Thank you for sharing this. I have a volunteer visitor come to visit with me once a month and every time she comes here, she makes fun of me because I have changed my rooms around (I have a very small apartment). Now, I try to make a joke out of it to ease my discomfort over her judgments. So, when we sit down, I say "well Ann, can you guess what I changed?" then I start to laugh.

Originally Posted by anderson

June bug,
all of our parts need time to feel wanted and safe.
were you safe in that room?
In truth those with in me change our rooms at least once a month. we even leave bubble wrap on the floor to let the littles make it pop.
The question is more of the fact are you comfortable in that room? are you safe? By given yourself a room that give you good memiors of the past then in truth , it seems like you are given a part of yourself a time and space to heal and grow in the ooutside world.
I/we truely hope that is the case that you are given yourself the ability to relaxe and just be.

[Korin]

It sounds like that part of you that changed the room around has somehow gained the courage and the confidence to show itself. The room change is it’s way of making itself known. It probably took this part a long time to find the courage to do that. I see it as a positive thing - a healing thing. This part of you feels safe now and is able to express itself in this beautiful way.

If other parts of you are not happy or comfortable with the room changes, perhaps some negotiation can help. Maybe allowing the other parts to add something to the room that represents them would help.

If the room changes again, don’t fret. That part has had their say and is happy to allow other parts to do the same. Other parts may have helped the part who changed the room in the first place. Sounds like some parts are definitely working together - this is always a good thing.

Try to simply go with the flow. I found meditation helpful. It helped me to be more calm and flow with the events allowing parts to take turn in expressing themselves.

The scariest thing about all this is the not knowing. Not knowing why things happen or change is scary. Being prepared to go with the flow allows them all to express themselves and it makes life easier.

Thank you Korin for your kind and though provoking reply I have read and reread what you have shared with me.

I have resisted all my parts, never honored them, feared them, denied them, tried to mute them and yet they persist and surprises happen. I have never accepted myself in parts and hence never accepted who I am.

I haven't looked at that part of my bedroom since I put up the shadow box on the bookcase. In fact, I moved my pillows to the other side of the bed and arise in the mornings on the opposite side where the bookcase is. If I happen to glance at the shadow box, it grays out and I can't really see it. It's been up about a week now.

I am tempted to take it down and yet, I can't seem to get to that side of the room to take it down. It's like there is a gray veil covering that side of the room preventing me from penetrating it to get it taken down.

The feelings now when I think about it are deep shame, so that conficts with why I put it up in the first place. Have been having intense emotions over the last two months, not sure where they came from or why I am having them, but out of these feelings came the urge to put up the shadowbox.

It all is very confusing to me.

Originally Posted by Korin

It sounds like that part of you that changed the room around has somehow gained the courage and the confidence to show itself. The room change is it’s way of making itself known. It probably took this part a long time to find the courage to do that. I see it as a positive thing - a healing thing. This part of you feels safe now and is able to express itself in this beautiful way.

If other parts of you are not happy or comfortable with the room changes, perhaps some negotiation can help. Maybe allowing the other parts to add something to the room that represents them would help.

If the room changes again, don’t fret. That part has had their say and is happy to allow other parts to do the same. Other parts may have helped the part who changed the room in the first place. Sounds like some parts are definitely working together - this is always a good thing.

Try to simply go with the flow. I found meditation helpful. It helped me to be more calm and flow with the events allowing parts to take turn in expressing themselves.

The scariest thing about all this is the not knowing. Not knowing why things happen or change is scary. Being prepared to go with the flow allows them all to express themselves and it makes life easier.

[Korin]

I'm sorry the change wasn't as positive as I had assumed. Sorry about that.

I worked for a long time to ignore mine too but, like you, they just persisted until I came to accept them for what they are - a part of me. Working together we take care of each other.

As uncomfortable as it may be, hopefully the changes are helping a part of you to face something and heal.

Perhaps asking a few questions might help. You could ask why that part of you made the changes to the room. And you could ask yourself or some other part why it makes you feel so uncomfortable. Maybe there is something to be learned here.

I still think some part of you is trying to help either you or another part to face up to something in an effort to promote more healing.

Sorry again for anything I said that may have made you feel even more uncomfortable.

Oh No, Korin, you said nothing to cause me to feel uncomfortable ((( hugs if okay))). Please don't feel this way, okay? Your posts are very important to me. It's soo hard with the black and white word to hear the changes in tone and meaning. I'm soo glad you responded to give me an opportunity to explain to you that you did nothing to cause me to feel anyway. I am the only one responsible for how I allow myself to feel.

I did make an attempt to take down the shadowbox this morning but I wasn't able to, so leaving it up for the time being and accepting it is there for a reason and hoping someday soon I will learn it's meaning.

Thank you Korin for all your helpful suggestions, I really appreciate and value what you have to say

Originally Posted by Korin

I'm sorry the change wasn't as positive as I had assumed. Sorry about that.

I worked for a long time to ignore mine too but, like you, they just persisted until I came to accept them for what they are - a part of me. Working together we take care of each other.

As uncomfortable as it may be, hopefully the changes are helping a part of you to face something and heal.

Perhaps asking a few questions might help. You could ask why that part of you made the changes to the room. And you could ask yourself or some other part why it makes you feel so uncomfortable. Maybe there is something to be learned here.

I still think some part of you is trying to help either you or another part to face up to something in an effort to promote more healing.

Sorry again for anything I said that may have made you feel even more uncomfortable.

[Korin]

Originally Posted by Korin

Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww, thank you, sooo cute !!!