[Nickiskip]

Obviously booting is "normal" in the world on mental health, but I'm a little confused on something. I told my pdoc I think I have different personalities and he asked me why I thought that. I couldn't really give him a straight answer. I was glad I could finally tell a professional about it.
Maybe I don't have DID. Sometimes I feel like there are people in my head having conversations that I am personally not a part of. Like sometimes they will argue and it just gives me a big headache. Some nights I go to sleep one person and wake up another. I don't know how many of them there are. Wait did I post this before? I don't know. Am I supposed to be aware of them is that common? I'm trying to remedy if I posted something like this before.... 😧

[Nickiskip]

Booting? Wtf did I write that? I don't even know what that was supposed to say. 😐

[childofchaos831]

There are different levels of dissociation and dissociative disorders... it's almost like a spectrum.

On one end, there is stuff like driving home after a long day at work, you always go the same way, you remember getting in the car and starting to head home, and then you're home and you don't remember actually driving the whole way. To an extent, this is normal. When someone is exhausted, they can go into autopilot mode, sort of.

In the middle of this "spectrum", there's (in no particular order, cuz im tired and going off memory) fugue states, depersonalization, the kind of dissociation that is common with PTSD where it's like watching a traumatic event from above like you are floating, and probably a few others I am not remembering.

Then on the other end is DID. It's considered the most severe dissociative disorder. It usually takes a bit of history and talking with doctors and Ts to come to an official diagnosis, and even then, some will only stand with DD-NOS for awhile to be sure.

I know, for me, the experience of conversations in my head that I'm not a part of is familiar. I also have a diagnosis for a psychotic disorder, and can get the same sensation but it seems to be coming from around me, in thru my ears. The doc will want to make sure it's not something like that.

The feeling of waking up as someone else could also fall somewhere lower on the spectrum and not all the way at DID...

Just keep trying to talk and explain with your doc and T (if you have one). I really hope it works out for you, and that you get answers.

Puck

P.S. I have been diagnosed DID for ~13 years and have done a lot of my own research and studying as well as schooling, but I am by no means a professional.

Originally Posted by Nickiskip

Obviously booting is "normal" in the world on mental health, but I'm a little confused on something. I told my pdoc I think I have different personalities and he asked me why I thought that. I couldn't really give him a straight answer. I was glad I could finally tell a professional about it.
Maybe I don't have DID. Sometimes I feel like there are people in my head having conversations that I am personally not a part of. Like sometimes they will argue and it just gives me a big headache. Some nights I go to sleep one person and wake up another. I don't know how many of them there are. Wait did I post this before? I don't know. Am I supposed to be aware of them is that common? I'm trying to remedy if I posted something like this before.... ��

Hi Nikki!

Denial seems to be a big part of DID. And yes one can be aware of Others but still be amnesiac to the Other's essence. We can talk in head....maybe share a memory or two....but I have no clue as to what they are thinking unless they say so. They do talk to each other every now and then....we have arguements, tell jokes, debate, screaming, criticizing, crying, whining, voting, everything that you have when you put a group of people in the same room. We always ask each other questions to get advice....group participation on a daily moment to moment living. Since we are aware of being aware....we now try to do things for the system and to not be selfish as we used to be before we acknowledged ourselves.

I find it hard too to admit to another person (professional or not) to draw attention to ourselves. When people look at me and ask a question like 'what do you think?'...I usually go blank and dissociate.

One can have OSDD (Other Specified Dissociative Disorder) instead of DID and have alters. Some people don't meet the full criteria to receive the DID label, but are still just as bad off.

Just keep opening up with your therapist or pdoc to figure this thing out. Hang in their luv.