Well, Went to the GP today.

I think im going to get a new one. I told him about therapy and how things are getting worse as it gets closer (first in person on tuesday) and he suggested I drop it!!!!!

He suggested we just sweep therapy under the rug because " I had done so well for a while"

At the time i was sao flustered I didnt really argue but the more I think about it the more upset I get. Certainly if you were having emotional problems stemming from childhood they would ENCOURAGE you to go t counselling. Not with him i guess. It confused me, I think that I will switch to a woman GP anyways.

Other than that, back to working part time. This way I just have t work a min of 24 hours a week, and can work more if I feel up to it.

I cleared off my desk tonight and set up a place where I could do my spiritual practise. I have been listening to my favorite music all night. Knowing I dont have to face the threat of being fired is taken SO much stress off me.

I also realized now I will be able to work on my book, go out and do things I wanted to do but did not have time.

This is the perfect thing to coincide with my therapy I feel.

I will have so much more freedom in cash things get rough, i dont need to fear losing my job.

I said that twice thats how much it relieves me.

haha.

I am in a great mood tonight. Im enjoying it while it lasts- sometimes with our mental problems we have to do that yanno, enjoy the good times as much as possible so you will have good memories when the bad times come again

[hillbunnyb]

New doctor, good idea.

[Mahali]

i am happy you wont lose your job. You do need a nice doctor. Thats very good if you do find one.

[LILITH]

Rainbow, get a new GP, ask your therapist who they suggest. My T, GP and Gyno all know of each others practice. The approach things as a team. They will call each other for suggestions on Meds or how they can be more supportive of different issues.
Hang in there!
Lilith