Haven't been around much. Things are not going well. Naomi started cutting again. so many triggers and having trouble settling down. She did contract not to cut...at least for now. T is frustrated, H is angry, I am angry and frustrated. I am tired of this whole thing. Wanted to go to a treatment center in FL but when I found out the cost, even with insurance paying over half, H and I said no way can we afford it. This is going to be a longer, rougher road than I had planned. Exhausted and ready to throw in the towel.
w-i

[LILITH]

{{{{{W-I}}}}} Sorry about your pain.... try to hold on...
Lilith

[Monty_girl]

Don't give up. It's a big roller coaster. Many Ups and Downs. Can't let the abusers win.

Understand the feeling some days are worse then others. When all the bad seems to come at once it gets to be just to much to handle. We are all here for you to lean on us. There are many ppl here who can listen.

Glad that Naomi could contract with T. That's a big step for her. Proud of ya for that.

We've had to do contracts for over a year now. Had to use them too.

Sorry about the treatment center in Fla. There is one in D.C. that's suppose to be good as well.

I hope things calm down for you soon. Is a hard place to be at.

Many thoughts,
Monty

{{{{{ w_i }}}}}

Thinking of you and sending positive vibes that you'll get through this difficult time soon.

Petunia

[cherybery]

(((((((((w-i))))))))) Hang in there and we are all here for ya!
Cher

[Fuzzybear]

Sending you many positive vibes hon (((((((((((((((white_iris)))))))))))))))))

[SongBirdandDaisy]

White Iris

I'm sending you many special angels to help guide you through this difficult time. I'm sorry that you are hurting and that things are confusing.

Be patient and gentle with yourself. T says, when I tell him I'm fighting a strong head wind, to just step aside and let the wind blow past. Food for thought.

Songbird

[Mahali]

w-i,

No towel throwing allowed. We would have to pick it up wash it and give it right back to you.

Seriously I am sorry that times are hard right now but I agree with Monty when she says there are peaks and valleys. One foot in front of the other gets you back to the top my friend. You can do this.

Thank you all for your words of support and friendship.
things are settling down a bit. One little step at a time. Naomi is still keeping her promise and worked with T today on why she has pushed down emotions and why she has harmed herself in the past and up to now. Alternatives to harming have been helpful. It's so exhausting.
Songbird, I like the stepping aside for the headwinds....
Place, i guess you're right about towel throwing--I gotta carry the d**n thing (Ha Ha). Can I throw something else???
w_i

(((((Fuzzy))))
Getting those good vibes. BTW, love your hula skirt!! Keep dancing.

w_i

[Mahali]

Yep, throw a fit or throw a vase...throw anything but the towel. I hate laundry. Keep taking those little steps cause they lead to the big ones.

((((((((((( w-i )))))))))

[hillbunnyb]

)))))))whiteiris((((((( bumpies kiddo. Keep on keeping on one little bit at a time. This springtime breaking through stuff can be pretty trying, If I had teeth, I'd be grinding them myself.....
But, today, I had sunshine in my yard for the second day( all day) in a row. That hasn't happened since February. I saw my first California poppy shining it's bright orange face at me as I drove to errands. Of course tomorrow is more rain, but the change is in motion, winter is on it's way out. Whew.