new to dissociation

hello all,

I was recently diagnosed with dissociation (in addition to complex ptsd). I'm working in therapy on stuff like this, but am having a hell of a time.

I can't get control of any of it.

I'm here one second and gone the next. Its hard for me to identify place I'm in until i switch and notice the difference.

I'm confused all the time

all of this is scary and frustrating. I'm scared that I'm gunna have to drop out of college because my memory has become so fragmented.

Any tips on ways I could help myself?

Any advice for someone like me who has just begun to address these problems?

Anything would be appreciated.

Thanks so much.

Welcome cantbringmedown..

Allot of good resources and support are on this site..compassionate people..hope you will continue to post..

Hi welcome. You can find alot of Dissociative information on my blog Me, Myself and I. My blog is geared towards specifically Dissociative Identity Disorder but some of the information may help you.

To get to the blogs at the top of this page is the word - Blogs. Click on it. On the page that comes up in a box on the side you will see the words - get your own. Click on that. On the page that comes up along the side you will see a short list of the most active blogs. Click on me, myself and I.

You can also get to the blogs by clicking on the word blogs and on the page that comes up click on - users in the tool bar then scroll through until you find the person or blog you can to read.

Take your time and get comfortable. There is a lot of great support here and a lot of great information. I find that I don't feel alone and like some kind of alien because other people can relate. It's a great support community.

Welcome,
Songbird

thanks all

Hi cantbringmedown

I'm feeling rather similar at the moment. Trying to stay grounded inT sessions has suddenly become extremely hard!
Take care, and let me know if you find a soloution.

((((((((((((((((Caroline and Cantbringmedown)))))))))))

I think having an understanding T is one of the best solutions at this point in therapy. Sometimes, that's the only thing that makes sense. But, try and remember, it will and does get better - two steps forward, one step back. I think as we uncover new stuff or stir up new/old stuff, that's what happens as our minds start to process the information. And it's okay - just tough and frustrating and scary. But we're healing and that's what we need to remember.

And we're all here for each other.

Big safe hugs to both of you.

Songbird and Daisy

can'tbringmedown, WELCOME ABOARD THE GOOD SHIP PSYCH CENTRAL !!! I've learned more, gotten more support, in 6 months here than anywhere else I've ever been. One idea to start thinking about is "control". Might as well face it, control is an illusion. Might be a better idea to work on your sea legs. Keep those knees flexible. This is a lifetime thing, no magic pills to make it go away. Ya gotta learn to ride it instead. This site is full of ideas on how to do that from folks who are in the same boat. It's actually pretty fascinating stuff.

Welcome!!!!!! It is new for me too but the best advice I can give is go about things one day at a time.
HUGS
Cher

hi and

no answers no answers no answers

only commonality right down to the school part

z0ey

Hello to everyone and anyone new to dissociation. For me, when I was diagnosed with MPD/DID 16 yrs ago T's and others I knew said to try and find a support place you trust or at least feel safe. I had alot of activity inside and I laid out crayons and paper along with pens and alot of paper. I found out by doing this it allowed other people inside be able to come out and have a voice. In my system that seemed to really help and help my T as well.
Good luck to all who are starting your journey. to all! ThaCrew

welcome to pc.com. please use all the support and help offered here by people who make pc.com the good place that it is. there are lots of nice people here who care.

leslie and her pixies

Cantbringmedown~

Although I am NEW to KNOWING I have DID...Up until the last 5-6 years I was managing my disorder quite naturally. I didn't know the thoughts from my alters was abnormal...and I didn't know they were alters. I accepted it as thoughts from myself that I didn't agree with and I "took every thought captive for Christ" and prayed. I only listened and followed the thoughts when they coincided with my personal belief system.
For the most part my alters all behave and work together to make one cohesive unit....however, under extreme stress involving abuse past or present I spiral into all the personalities trying to vie for control and I look like a crazy person. To maintain control this past week I have been trying a few things that have been working. I'll share in case any of them might help you, I can't wait till payday so I can get my ativan cause that will help me immensely...

Try to stay IN THE MOMENT....HERE AND NOW....

1) Ice cold drink (I have even run the ice over my face to shock my system)
If it is cold out a hot drink works...has to be opposite for me to get the shock

2) cold shower

3) listen to music and dance or do hip hop ab workout video

These are the main three things I have been doing to stay in the moment and though it has been rough this last 1 1/2 weeks I have made it through with minimal changing...I have been aware for all of them and they just basically came out to enjoy a smoke or sucker and the night air and then left me be.

Don't know if this helps at all or not. If anyone else has any ideas on how to stay in here and now and shock system in a nice way I would love more ideas myself!

~AngelsRUs~