Hello~ New to my diagnosis of DID :P

I made a very long introduction in the New Member thread... I try not to talk a lot but I can't seem to ever be quiet :C My mind goes too fast to keep up and I wonder if it's because of my DID diagnosis...

I mentioned personalities, or Alters, that are relatively new. I'm not sure exactly what DID is... However, I just want to know that I am not alone! I have been to so many promising sites only to have my posts edited and spoken down to over things that I hadn't intended to insinuate :CC

I'm not asking for a diagnosis! I already have one! :C I just want to meet people like me and not feel so lonely!!! My family hates me and I can't stand it! They think I'm crazy and I have no one to talk to... No one wants to help me!!!

I need to find a clinic, etc where I can get help. I'm turning 18 in three months and 10 years of being doped up and thought to be Bi-Polar has ruined everything! My family says I need to stop making excuses but they don't ****ing know what I've been through and they're the ones making excuses for not having to deal with me! They try to dump my problems all on me and it's sickening because it's their fault I'm like this and I don't mean to talk so much and YES, OF COURSE I'M LONELY!!! DUHHH!!!

I live in Red Bluff, CA. I've been looking to the Sacramento area, but any other options would be great! Please! I need help... :c

Well, I just want to give an outline of my personalities... But first I want to describe the experience a bit first... Well, I have this habit of always wanting to be ME, even though I know that sometimes I'm not always ME and there is something very wrong with the ME at the moment. I change. It was really bad because I found myself with Black hair and I loved it, but then I hated it! I wanted it Blonde but it was all Black and gross! It took so long to get it out! At least a Copper Brown would have looked better than Black!

Anyway, I can't really explain it in a Thread Post... To be honest, I don't really know how to describe my symptoms... I don't want to sound like an idiot! :C

Here are the bases of my Alters/Personalities:

CHILD - A thoughtless, childish follower. Has no opinions of her own. Love is a VERY misunderstood concept for her. Very depressing...

DARK - The violent, hateful revenge-seeking goth girl. Is very pessimistic and saracastic.

BRIGHT - The "preppy" teen girl. Extremely OCD and loves design and fashion. Very optimistic.

LEADER/MOTHER - Is exactly like a Mother and a Leader. Helps everyone and is very protective of her family. Handles problems like an adult. Loves to cook and clean. Mostly just stubborn and Motherly.

LUST - The "sex-fiend" who hardly EVER comes out, but I am aware of her. She is VERY submissive.

EMPATH - VERY sentimental! She is shy and very thoughtful; a very deep thinker. Has a bit of trouble standing up for herself, but sometimes can. Extremely OCD but hates to clean... Cries A LOT over anything sad. Usually cries FOR everyone and not always for herself. Very selfless.

GAY BOY - Actually IS a "gay boy". He loves to flirt and be extremely bossy and demanding. He can be submissive and childish but is very outspoken. Hates not being aware of things happening around him.

Hi Shadesofme. Welcome. Thanks for sharing about yourself!
It can feel very lonely. There are lots of great people on here to talk with, and you can try joining the chats, too.
Good luck finding a clinic or some other help in your area. I hope you will find some better options.