[mala]

I just watched a clip of Mr. Brooks, I dont watch CSI or the rest of "high quality" drama that everyone seems to enjoy. As I was highly sensitive, Ive had to numb my emotions as Im overwhelmed by the deluge of insane creativity that is called culture. Im less sensitive, Ive essentially gone, depersonalised to sludge, and acquired a stepford appearance and manner, but as a faded memory of what I was,would just like to say that sometimes depersonalisation is ok, in fact its more sane to me than most things in this deceptive world. Yes I know theres beauty and goodness in the world, but that just seems like glossy paint to cover the reality of everything. Its meaningless but I continue because theres nothing and nowhere else. I could change one illusion for another, and I probably will as thats what fragemented minds do. Congrajulations to a wonderful world.

[Travelinglady]

I have sometimes dissociated when I am feeling overwhelmed or under too much stress. In a sense it can be a healthy response. But I find some aspects of the real world to be enjoyable.....

[avlady]

Very well put!!

[roads]

It's only been the past few months that I've learned to used dissociating as a coping skill. In some ways it's the best one I have now--and I'm getting better using it "invisibly."
It's a relief, though, when I can be free of people and enjoy my world openly, honestly ... without pretense or divide. That's why I love the wilderness and animals so much, no doubt.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by mala

I just watched a clip of Mr. Brooks, I dont watch CSI or the rest of "high quality" drama that everyone seems to enjoy. As I was highly sensitive, Ive had to numb my emotions as Im overwhelmed by the deluge of insane creativity that is called culture. Im less sensitive, Ive essentially gone, depersonalised to sludge, and acquired a stepford appearance and manner, but as a faded memory of what I was,would just like to say that sometimes depersonalisation is ok, in fact its more sane to me than most things in this deceptive world. Yes I know theres beauty and goodness in the world, but that just seems like glossy paint to cover the reality of everything. Its meaningless but I continue because theres nothing and nowhere else. I could change one illusion for another, and I probably will as thats what fragemented minds do. Congrajulations to a wonderful world.

not sure what you mean by ....stepford appearance.... we dont have that term here where I live and work to describe someones appearance and manner. either someone is well mannered or they are rude (dont use their manners) they are either well dressed, or its clear that they are able to address their own hygiene or they need help with taking care of their self and their hygiene issues.

on the subject of depersonalization...I am glad you are able to benefit from having depersonalization disorder symptoms...

for me it is not beneficial..taking just the diagnostic criteria for having depersonalizatio well...

I dont like feeling like an observer, as if Im not part of my life, nor do I like feeling like I have no control over my body and life,

I dont like feeling distress (anxiety, panic, depression ...) about my personal social academic and other important areas of functioning...

aside from the diagnostics for depersonalization I do not like feeling like I am in a medicated state of mind..you know those feelings a person gets when they are on too much or not enough antipsychitics/antidepressants and some of the side effects that the right antipsychotics/antidepressants such as feeling like Im moving in slow motion, unable to tell the difference between emotions like my wife telling a joke and I not get it because mentally Im just not connected to her and what she is saying,

I didnt like people being able to use my body any way they wanted to because hey I was depersonalized/not connected so I pretty much had no say what was happening with and in my body...how could I tell someone no if i had shut my self off and felt no feelings one way or the other about what they were doing/ what they wanted to do.

I also hate not being able to respond to my wife when she and I are together intimately. nothing like going through the motions with someone you love and end up feeling unsatisfied and your wife thinking she did something wrong. I lost many a great relationships with family/friends/ and lovers because I was having depersonalization symptoms..

Im glad you like those things that come with being depersonalized, but for me its a no brainer...I choose mindfulness, groundedness and being a part of what goes on with my life and more importantly what happens with and in my body.