Keep Your Focus

<font color="red"> Some days are more difficult than others. Trying to keep your head above water when the ocean is quickly rising. I will use the first person so no one assimulates my - stuff.

Keeping focus can be almost impossible at times. From the misgivings of a dysfunctional family who are themselves trying to survive but remain hidden in the sand and forcing their views upon me as they always have, leaving me feeling inadequate, different, unacceptable. A husband who is supportive one day and accusatory the next, impossible to talk to when I am desperate to talk to someone, to have anyone understand.

Too much coming at me at once. Too many alters needing attention, too much confusion. Some days, it's so difficult to keep going, to find the strength, to find the will . . . . . This takes so much energy and focus.

Thank the Lord for psychologist who refuse to give up, who always have the right words at the right time. "Keep your focus."

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(((((((((((SongBirdandDaisy)))))))))
I did enjoy talking to you in chat the other night. Thank you so much. Understand so much trying to keep head above water when it is rising quickly. I'm so sorry you are struggling.

It's so hard when those around us do not understand or get tired of trying to understand. For me, it seems the grumpiness/accusatory stuff from family gets worse when it affects what they want to do or have happen. Sometimes I think they are so focused on what they want that they get lost to the fact that I am struggling too. I don't know if it is the same there, but regardless I'm so sorry you are not getting the support you need at times.

One day at a time, one moment at a time. Keeping focused is easier said than done for sure. We're here to listen and to do whatever we can do to help you keep focused.

It sure does take energy to do. Someone recently offered to me the idea of working on doing it only for a short time right now. Not to have to stay focused 24 hours a day, but maybe try to stay focused an hour or two today. My system was built to survive and sometimes I think I end up making things worse by feeling like I have to try to be present all the time, have to be healed immediately. My T recently told me, it's okay if I'm not here all the time. It's okay if other parts take over. It's why my brain created them, to survive. It's not that we want it to always be like this, but when it causes so much more stress because we want change now, for me, it makes things worse. We will get there. Maybe it's okay if we aren't there immediately.

I don't know if this even relates to what you mean or if it helps. I am struggling with balance at the moment and so please forgive me if I am way off track for what you are saying. Please know I care and I wish you peace.

<font color="purple">Hello WTH

It was really nice chatting with you the other day. I certainly needed and appreciated it. PM any time.

Your reply was exactly what I was talking about. I am more stable today. My T also tells me not to be the one in control all the time, that it's okay to let the others forth, they want to come forth for a reason.

It gets so confusing and 'heavy'. I know we will all make it. It takes time, support from friends who understand like you.

I'm glad the hidden message in my original post wasn't noticed. Things were pretty desperate. But I've stabalized.

Hugs
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(((SongBirdandDaisy)))

We are glad that you have a caring and supportive Professional helping you(s) focus..its good to have at least one IRL that u know will be there for you when being DID really makes everything so out of focus...to many eye(s)..you would think it would be easier to see...but nope..

take care and gentle hugs to all...luv your birdie..she is so precious..