[KittenE]

I have been waxing very philosophical lately. Thinking a lot about life, meaning, purpose, etc. I recently accepted a new F/T job and am trying to enjoy my last two weeks "off" before I start the job. I have been starting to "lose time" again, here and there forgeting what has happened over the last day or even few days. I am wondering if I am reacting to the stress of starting my first job in over two years by splitting off into my more competent and socially accepted part. This concerns me, because when I am "a productive member of society" I lose touch with my self and end up feeling fake, unreal, and unhappy to the point of severely depressed. My current therapist does not really believe in splitting, talks about my experiences as depersonalization. My recent increase in feeling unreal and memory loss is a bit scary, and I'm reconsidering whether the new job is my best course of action right now...I will try it out at least since I really need the money. Just don't want to return to feelings of lack of existence!

[Claritytoo]

I think explaining to my parts why we were working and that they could come out after work, helped them to understand that we needed to work together as a family. They understood that at times they would have to stay in while others worked. Once they understood that they were helping by being patient and that when we had money we could do some of the things they liked they seemed to accept the others time spent in the world and us working.