Can a nervous breakdown happen over sudden identity confusion?

This introject took me over again because things were going really well in several parts of my life. It came to sabotage everything. It feels like it takes me over, like I am possessed by it and need an exorcisim to get rid of it. Im not religious but that's the only way I can explain how hit feels.

So it came to get me lastnight after work, and made me drink 6 beers. it happened suddenly on my way home from work-it just took me over and I felt really, relaly depressed . I don't even like to drink. It did some other things but I don't want to write all of the details here. This was after feeling really good for a few days, and thinking positive, and thinking about how my life is going well in several different ways. And after my last therapy session, my worrying & anxiety totally disappeared. It felt amazing. I wasn't hypomanic at all, just calm, content, and truly happy and optimistic for the first time in a long time. Then it snuck up on me and came to get me and was laughing at me. It wants me to die.

I usually hurt like it's stabbing me in the chest with a knife, but suddenly it felt like the pain was coming from within my chest this time. It hurt so bad, emotionally. I was crying so hard. I don't know what the pain meant. I am scared because I started to get confused about who I am. I started wondering if 'me' is the introject, and the other states of myself were the ones who took me over. The opposite of how it's seemed. Then I felt like I was going to go crazy, a little calmer now.

I've been crying so hard. I texted my therapist but he hasn't been able to get back to me yet. I just wondered if anyone knows if someone can have a complete breakdown because of these issues. People talk about DID all the time but I hardly ever hear the actual details. thanks

**Please don't tell me to go to a hospital that is really triggering to me thanks

[kaliope]

I am new to all this DID stuff myself, just learning about my parts so I don't know how much I can help you. but I think I can answer your question...yes, they can cause you to have a nervous breakdown. they can trigger cycles, they can drive you crazy and like you said, try to kill you. I know I had a part that was trying to off me and it drove me to a major breakdown. when I thought I was DID years ago, I was frantic trying to figure it all out and it threw me into a major mania and my t said I needed to be hospitalized. he knew how much that scared me so he and pdoc worked together to medicate me and I checked in with pdoc everyday to stay out of the hospital. so don't worry, I wont tell you to go there. I am just trying to make nice with my parts right now because I am resentful of them feelin like they hold my mental health in their hands, they are the keys to me getting better and I have no control over them and I resent that. so I get angry and lecture them and then t says I am being an abusive parent and scaring them and they will never cooperate that way. so I wish I could do more to help you. you can pm me if you need anybody to talk to. take care.

[Claritytoo]

Originally Posted by Anonymous32735

Can a nervous breakdown happen over sudden identity confusion?

This introject took me over again because things were going really well in several parts of my life. It came to sabotage everything. It feels like it takes me over, like I am possessed by it and need an exorcisim to get rid of it. Im not religious but that's the only way I can explain how hit feels.

So it came to get me lastnight after work, and made me drink 6 beers. it happened suddenly on my way home from work-it just took me over and I felt really, relaly depressed . I don't even like to drink. It did some other things but I don't want to write all of the details here. This was after feeling really good for a few days, and thinking positive, and thinking about how my life is going well in several different ways. And after my last therapy session, my worrying & anxiety totally disappeared. It felt amazing. I wasn't hypomanic at all, just calm, content, and truly happy and optimistic for the first time in a long time. Then it snuck up on me and came to get me and was laughing at me. It wants me to die.

I usually hurt like it's stabbing me in the chest with a knife, but suddenly it felt like the pain was coming from within my chest this time. It hurt so bad, emotionally. I was crying so hard. I don't know what the pain meant. I am scared because I started to get confused about who I am. I started wondering if 'me' is the introject, and the other states of myself were the ones who took me over. The opposite of how it's seemed. Then I felt like I was going to go crazy, a little calmer now.

I've been crying so hard. I texted my therapist but he hasn't been able to get back to me yet. I just wondered if anyone knows if someone can have a complete breakdown because of these issues. People talk about DID all the time but I hardly ever hear the actual details. thanks

**Please don't tell me to go to a hospital that is really triggering to me thanks

It sounds more like you had a panic attack. I used to get them when I felt out of control or unreal. Medication and therapy has helped me with this. I will get a panic attack every now and than, but no where near how they used to be. Since I have been in therapy I have learned about grounding. An ice pack works for me most of the time. Also getting outside where I feel I can breath helps. Sometimes when things are going well I will get a visit from an alter who is negative or self destructive. I think it is because we think fear and stress is the way we are supposed to feel. I think we create it because we mistakenly believe those feelings to be "normal". I think it will take me time to accept feelings of calm as "normal" I hope some of this helps. Feel better.