[lozza89]

Hi,

so ummmm things have been out of control lately and especially with dissociation and losing time. My psychologist brought this up with her fellow team a few weeks ago and another psychologist thinks its very likely I have DID. Since hearing this from my own psych things seem to be even more out of control and especially with time loss and not remembering things.

i.e. I spoke to my psych earlier on and she brought up that she had been receiving quite a few msgs lately - I didn't think much of this at the time and just thought that maybe she had mixed me up with one of her other clients?

I felt suss though so I looked back through my phone and saw that there was many msgs that had been sent to her that I do not recall writing let alone sending to her and even more so with some of the content that was shared..

am I losing my mind? I feel like I am going crazy!!!

I know now that she will be pushing even harder for me to get an assessment done but I am soooooo scared. I feel like I am out of control on some level and don't know what to do.

Sorry I don't know what I am asking for right now, just feel very frightened and alone

[Claritytoo]

Originally Posted by lozza89

Hi,

so ummmm things have been out of control lately and especially with dissociation and losing time. My psychologist brought this up with her fellow team a few weeks ago and another psychologist thinks its very likely I have DID. Since hearing this from my own psych things seem to be even more out of control and especially with time loss and not remembering things.

i.e. I spoke to my psych earlier on and she brought up that she had been receiving quite a few msgs lately - I didn't think much of this at the time and just thought that maybe she had mixed me up with one of her other clients?

I felt suss though so I looked back through my phone and saw that there was many msgs that had been sent to her that I do not recall writing let alone sending to her and even more so with some of the content that was shared..

am I losing my mind? I feel like I am going crazy!!!

I know now that she will be pushing even harder for me to get an assessment done but I am soooooo scared. I feel like I am out of control on some level and don't know what to do.

Sorry I don't know what I am asking for right now, just feel very frightened and alone

The diagnosis is not going to change who you are. A diagnosis just enables you to work on the things that are causing you stress. It helps to explain certain behaviors. It helped me to understand that I was not insane. That my behaviors were related to a trauma I suffered when I was young. Just know that eased a lot to my anxiety. You are on the right track. Take care.

[lozza89]

Thankyou claritytoo, that makes sense. Sometimes it is very hard to remember that a person is not a diagnosis but rather it gives the health professional a better idea on how best to treat you and help you recover.

I am just finding this whole DID thing really hard to get my head around I guess. I am really scared about seeing my psych on Tuesday and especially as it looks like the little one has been talking to her a lot.

..it kind of feels like I am losing control and that scares me A LOT!

can I ask how others have managed with this? how you felt when the possibility of DID first came up?

My GP and psychiatrist know nothing as I am still trying to figure out if we can trust them or not. I am meant to see my GP in the morning (hehe its already morning for me here) and I don't know what to tell her - she has been off sick for a few weeks.. how am I meant to catch her up on everything?

Any advice, encouragement would be greatly appreciated