[Silent_Alone]

At school and home, I regularly have times when I somehow blank out and wake up wondering where I am and realising that I am viewing the world in first person if that makes sense?

I also feel like I don't exist because I barely speak a word with anyone at school and many people act like I don't exist. I sometimes try to talk but I am ignored constantly.

Hello Silent_Alone: It's difficult to say if this is actual depersonalization or just the kind of blinking out we all do from time-to-time. If this is something that concerns you, & I would presume it is since you posted about it here, I would recommend talking about it with a therapist or psychiatrist. They are going to be in the best position to tell you what it is you're dealing with.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by Silent_Alone

At school and home, I regularly have times when I somehow blank out and wake up wondering where I am and realising that I am viewing the world in first person if that makes sense?

I also feel like I don't exist because I barely speak a word with anyone at school and many people act like I don't exist. I sometimes try to talk but I am ignored constantly.

short version what you posted can be just about anything fromnormal to abnormal, mental or physical....let me show you what I mean...

sometimes when I dont get enough sleep I get a bit spacy/disorented, confused anout where I am, whats happening...my treatment providers call this sleep deprivation.

sometimes when I dont eat correctly these same things happen, in this situaiton these same symptoms are called poor nutrition,

sometimes when I get stressed out and have the same symptoms you posted, my treatment providers call it stress/anxiety/ panic disorders

sometimes this happens to me and my treatment providers call it MS (multiple Sclerosis)

sometimes these same symptoms are called depresison, bipolar disorder and many other problems with in me depending upon other accompanying symptoms...

as for thinking of things in the first person...(I am this, I did that, I am going to...this is my...thinking in terms of me, my , mine ...) is completely normal.

what is sometimes not normal depending upon other accompanying symptoms is if a person thinks /talk of their self in the second or third person point of view (saying she did this, she did that, he said this, he said that, or caling yourself by name rather than saying me or I...or thinking talking about one self but in the they, or their wording...) I which case there are many different mental and physicla health problems that cause a person to think of their self in the second or third person point of view example many autisitc children think and say billy did it rather than the first person of saying I did it.

as for your title of depersonalization? ...whether you have depersonalization we cant tell you that, only a treatment provider outside of your computer life and in your real life can diagnose whether you have depersonalization or not.

what I can tell you is that here is where you can read about what america goes by for what is depersonalization ....

Depersonalization/derealization Disorder 300.6 (F48.1)

A the presence of persistant or recurrent experiences of depersonalization, derealization or both:

1. Depersonalization: Experiences of unreality, detachment or being outside observer with respect to ones thoughts, feelings, sensations, body or actions (e.g perceptual alterations, distorted sense of time, unreal or absent self, emotional or physical numbing)

2. Derealization: experiences of unreality or detachment with respect to surroundings (e.g. individuals or objects are experienced as unreal dreamlike, foggy, lifeless or visually distorted)

B. During the depersonalization or derealization experiences, reality testing remains intact.

C. the symptoms cause clinically significant distress or impairment in social, occupational, or other important areas of functioning.

D. the disturbance is not attributable to the physiological effects of a substance (e.g. a drug of abuse, medication) or other medical condition. (e.g. Seizures)

E. The disturbance is not better explained by another mental disorder such as schizophrenia, panic disorder, major depressive disorder, acute stress disorder, post traumatic stress disorder or other dissociative disorder.

the DSM 5 also goes through the categories of diagnostic features, associated features supporting diagnosis, prevalence, development and course, Risk and Prognosis Factors, Cultural Related Diagnostic issues, Functional consequences of depersonalization/derealization disorder, differential diagnosis, and comorbidity.

[Silent_Alone]

I forgot to mention something huge. During a school dissection, My vision suddenly started fading rapidly and it turned completely grey. I kept losing my balance quickly and my classmates reported my face turning extremely pale. I then ended up slipping, hitting my head on the table and blacking out.

I also feel like I am just spectating everyone else most of the time and I have no part in anything.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by Silent_Alone

I forgot to mention something huge. During a school dissection, My vision suddenly started fading rapidly and it turned completely grey. I kept losing my balance quickly and my classmates reported my face turning extremely pale. I then ended up slipping, hitting my head on the table and blacking out.

I also feel like I am just spectating everyone else most of the time and I have no part in anything.

this happened to me in science class. its completely normal fainting/anxiety spell that many students in high school and college have. the high schools around here now only do their disecting chapters when the school nurse is available due to students feeling faint (feeling dizzy, blurred greying foggy vision problems) and passing out...

fainting and feeling this way is actually a medical problem for many students. they know they have to disect that day so they get nervous, dont eat, work their self up to the point where their blood pressure drops, which causes them to have fainting symptoms, black outs and actually fainting/passing out.

my suggestion if you are having these kinds of symptoms you might want to contact a medical doctor or a therapist or a psychiatrist. you see we cant tell you what your problems are called.

all we do here is read each others posts, give virtual thanks and virtual hugs. and tell you whether we have had the same problems. and what our own treatment providers called these same symptoms in ourselves.

if you really think you have a dissociative problem like depersonalization then you need to contact a treatment provider. they are the only ones that can help you with your problems like this.

[ChildlikeEmpress]

Some of this sounds like depersonalization, but with all the things you are describing I would definitely go see a doctor to see what's up with the fainting and vision changes. They'd probably want to do some neurological tests.