[JohnCrow]

I suffer from depression and, intermittently, depersonalization

I often feel like I am living the line from Skating Away On The Thin Ice Of The New Day; "Or that everybody's on the stage, and it seems like, you're the only person sitting in the audience?"

There has been more than a few times where a mild hallucination accompanies speaking, the person seeming to be a doll (hard to describe, they look 'odd')

[kaliope]

i think that would be derealization causing the person to seem like a doll. the world just kind of takes on an unreal appearance.

[JohnCrow]

I have learned not to startle when it happens. Just keep talking - they eventually return to normal

Hi johncrow- it reminds me of sitting back and watching a movie. Usually a level of anxiety seems to come with it. A time or two I felt like I was sitting back in my head looking out my eye windows as the body kept walking and talking.

[TheFuZZieONE]

Originally Posted by JohnCrow

I suffer from depression and, intermittently, depersonalization

I often feel like I am living the line from Skating Away On The Thin Ice Of The New Day; "Or that everybody's on the stage, and it seems like, you're the only person sitting in the audience?"

There has been more than a few times where a mild hallucination accompanies speaking, the person seeming to be a doll (hard to describe, they look 'odd')

JohnCrow,

We are all actors on a stage, just the rest of the world doesn't know they're acting like we know! Lol. Sorry to make light of a serious situation, but humor is my coping mechanism. Please don't be offended.

I actually know the sensation of feeling like nothing is real. To me it feels like life is a club that I'm not allowed in. Everyone around me goes around feeling these "feelings" that I just don't feel. It's a sad and lonely to feel as if you don't belong with the living.

I too am battling depression, but I also have PTSD. I've been diagnosed with PTSD and GAD, but I know what depression feels like and it's hell. Life really doesn't feel worth living. My belief is that I disassociated from my depression and created a whole person I nicknamed "Emo Jen." When she takes over, I become suicidal and cry uncontrollably all day long. Then, just like that, she will go away and I'll be happy again. I don't feel I'm Bi-Polar. I honestly think I have a depression personality.

All these "I" statements... you'd think this post was all about ME. Ha! This post is really about you!! I hope you don't really believe your life is a "sad sack." I sincerely hope you feel better. Why don't you try seeing it this way: you're not hallucinating people are dolls. You're really seeing people for the fakeness they display. It's all about perspective, eh?