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Through my teenage years I was sexually/gender confused over the previous 12 years not knowing who I am. Even today I feel transgendered...only when I'm in control even though I've been the most active alter up front through the years.
It's so hard accepting that things are all so wrong. It's a me thing, I can't speak for the others. My head hurts. Lol. That's such a one sided view. With outbursts like that, Yep, it ain't hard to go wtf. Bang bang your dead man don't listen to her because she's blank. I know who the hell I am. Signing off...lol |
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I'm sorry. That was quite abrupt. Lol. He's just funny. Where was I? I'm not who I am that I want to be because I'm not he or me. I'm so in limbo. I've been here for a million of years.
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It's not fair, to be robbed from birth then stigma'd and misunderstood for the rest of your life. I thought bipolar was doable, but this takes the cake to have the granddaddy of all mental illnesses, IMHO. I must be a good actor to hide it all these years, and I suck at acting. No Oscar awards here! ![]() As you can tell I guess, I'm sorta not bashful, sorta! ![]() So sadd. I don't know who to hate. Angry Man is an easy call but the others are quite cute. It so hard to hate when they're so great. |
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I'm reading this book that says in the path towards healing you must learn to love even your most evil alters, because they are actually a piece of you that needs love the most. It sounds hard, but I'm trying hard to do just that and love my sinister alter ego.
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"I lost my mind a few times, but my wallet even more" ~ Kurt Cobain |
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I just get lost on who I really am, I'm always changing, so nailing down "me" isn't easy. My interests change, so does my energy, attitude, self image,....all the stuff that goes with it. I contradict myself in the same day, so says my family. It's just pure confusion.
I'm an enigma. But a least we have direction. Whatever it takes to get there! ![]() |
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