All my life my mother called me "stupid", or "what's wrong with you?" Of "do you have a split personality?"

Standard answer out of pure fear was "no"..dissociate.

I, being of sound mind and body, but be crazy enough to talk this way to her (after a few beers)....,"remember all the times you asked "me" if I had a split personality as a kid? Well...Yes.... I do have a split personality." To say multiple is so like more wasted breathe that I care for....like trying to explain rocket science to a 4th grader.

Bless her heart, she's a foreign national that has been backwater raised that she has no clue...

I said "I am". To my surprise, she asked if they made medicine for it? And I said, "no."

Then I said my father beat me up all my life as if to shift some blame, he was a total prick/****. Not one or the other, but both.

On some plane, she understood??? I was like oooookaaay?

I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me, I want people to know why and how come. The rest is up to them.

So, at least for now, a small victory until I'm told I'm being crazy. Feel good!

Was this wrong? I'm so worried now.

[Shaly78]

I sorry your mother doesnt understand....Wow I guess it all made sense later on for you. Yea the medicine thing has my family questioning...I agree no meds...

[sepia officinalis]

It's natural to worry about what we've said and how it impacts people--especially people we love and/or have long relationships with.

A lot of people will say "just move on," but I think some retrospection is worthwhile. The world doesn't stop for us, though, and we all do have to move on from past experiences. That's not the same as forgetting, though.

I think it's really good that you were able to have this talk with your mother. Don't worry if you didn't say everything right, even the smartest among us make mistakes.

With my mother, I periodically give her updates to try to help her understand. When I learn something new about my condition, I wait a couple weeks, then give her an update with as much info as I can. She doesn't understand a lot of the time, but all I can do is try.

Originally Posted by sepia officinalis

It's natural to worry about what we've said and how it impacts people--especially people we love and/or have long relationships with.

A lot of people will say "just move on," but I think some retrospection is worthwhile. The world doesn't stop for us, though, and we all do have to move on from past experiences. That's not the same as forgetting, though.

I think it's really good that you were able to have this talk with your mother. Don't worry if you didn't say everything right, even the smartest among us make mistakes.

With my mother, I periodically give her updates to try to help her understand. When I learn something new about my condition, I wait a couple weeks, then give her an update with as much info as I can. She doesn't understand a lot of the time, but all I can do is try.

My mother started in on me first when I was a baby. It's like telling your abuser that you did this too me. You want her to know but for some reason not accuse her of such, but you really are.